It is getting worse and worse!!

I am kind of lost my self-confidence . Been trying to quit porn from 6 months. But it gets hard after 5-6 days as urges starts to take control over my emotions and will power. I tried outdoor activities as well.
Been a porn addict from 10 years and it got worse by time. Started with simple hardcore porn but that thing doesn't trigger me anymore. Loosing interest in sex with wife. Suffering PIED only gets hard to some special and very evil stuff which you cannot even wanna talk about. Turned in incest, bisexuality and other kinky stuff and even trying in my real life as well. Don't feel any sensations in real touch anymore.
I guess my problem is not being seen by anyone as my wife work nigh shifts. I have lot of personal time when nobody is near me and my devils take charge on me.
My longest streak is 10 days but fail every single time I try. Sorry for my english and grammer as It is my not first language.
Any suggestions and help would be really appreciated.

 

Thank you for your kind words and understanding my situation. I have never posted on this forum ever before but read out guys only and came to know that I threw myself in a dark room of porn unknowingly. I have passed a lot of stages of porn addiction already.
We all know how we say that once you hit a top of one sort of excitement then you need more than that. I don't get erection on porn anymore, but i do get a very hard erection photoshoping my close one's faces on some random pornstar pictures. You can imagine the level of trap i am in. I have no attraction towards my wife even she is perfect in every sense physically and mentally.
I try hard to stay away from screen but as I sit on computer or phone the first thing that comes to mind is a porn search. And once I'm on screen it goes deeper and deeper everytime. Trading faceless pics of wife, wanting to see her with other man, a lot of incestuous stuff.

 

Thanks for your advice. Yea, I'm trying to stay optimistic and keep myself busy all the times. I have ruined better part of my life in this addiction already but i am determined to take back control on myself and fight against my devils. I know this uphill battle won't be a easy one and i read a lot of success stories on this forum which keeps me energized and stay focus.
Now whenever i have urges i come back to this forum and read the success stories to avoid watching Porn. Its been 9 days already, I have not seen a damn insta picture or anything sexual. Deleted all my saved stack of pictures vids etc. Deleted all my account on hook up apps. But scared at the same time as well that I won't be able to hold back myself for long.

 

Thanks mate! This is the thing I love about the forum. We are all here because of the same reason I guess. And we understand eachother's problem without even knowing the person because we are going or gone through the same pain! It really helps to stay motivated. Appretiate it man!

 

I am.happy to share my progress. I am working hard to get rid of this death trap. I am on my 10th day without P or M. Which is a magic number for me. Try staying focused and keep myself occupied always. Started working out and everything.
I know it is going to be q very long process for me to heal because i have gone deep deep deep down in this hell hole. But i am optimistic and determined.
Things I am struggling with right now:
Hard for me to sleep to sleep at night. Because i used to PMO every night before sleeping.
Having sexual dreams which i think I cannot control at the moment, but I am glad I am not touching my dick.
I have no morning woods from years nor I am expecting them anytime soon. I know how this thing is gonna work. But I have high patience level.
Deleted all the social media from my phone. Deleted all the stack of saved pictures and vids. Staying away from the phone. I used to have 6-7 hours screen time only on phone ( Laptop extra). But i am down to 2 hours only.
But I am scared to fail. I don't wanna relapse.