From 2017 to 2020 I put together two separate periods of sexual sobriety about 18 months or so each. I can see how mentally each of those were great times, in that I had to suffer through a lot of mental energy that had built up over the years. I don't think pornography is evil (as long as its hetero adults hahaha!) Well, I suppose I'm starting over and that's ok. It's relatively easy to change a habit, compared to the (often inherited) personality/character issues related to having a lack of impulse control. For example here's a list of my vices since I was approx. 10 yrs of age, or 30 years ago: Porn, masturbation, sugar, alcohol, marijuana, cocaine, gambling, love, approval, sex, internet etc. I say etcetera bc I'm sure there's more I'm not aware of. A lot of self hate comes along with the addictive personality, especially given that many of us were unconsciously raised to be that way. I know I had some clear indicators that my development was far from satisfactory ie. bringing a knife to school in the 3rd grade
Something happening twice is coincidence- it's up to all of us to make it three and beyond, to make it an action. I hope you can help yourself, and that we can help you.
Thanks Sir. This reset is going well. I decided to omit masturbation from my reset clock. It's going a lot better bc I'm not raging on the inside from an overabundance of testosterone.
