It never gets easier...

I feel you lmao, my addiction is much worse than it was 3-4 years ago, it grew worse as I tried to battle it and failed repeteadly, like you I also have gone on streaks of 1-2 months but then fall back, and when I do fall back, its worse everytime. At one point I gave up battling it however throughout my experience now have a new outlook on what I am battling and have a better understanding of how I can fight it.

Researching about my self, why I am as I am, how I came to be as I am, how my use of porn started and escalated, why I seek it, why we seek anything at all, and what the difference is between different mediums of pleasure have been key aspects of getting a better understanding on how to defeat this addiction once and for all.

It is a war against yourself, the part of you that succumbs to pleasure, that doesnt want to worry about anything and be in constant ecstacy. It is a war within yourself, by yourself, for yourself. Analyze yourself, understand yourself, defeat yourself and take control of yourself from yourself. Because it is all you in the end, and you have all the power over yourself as none other.

Feel free to read my other posts for a better understanding of the way I think and view this, and how I am waging this war. And yes, I am only on a 1 day streak today but have never felt better and more confident in winning this war than ever before.

 

First off I think that you've done well so far. Your streaks are pretty long.

Binging after a relapse is quite common for addictions.

If you keep relapsing then ask yourself how do you fail? Is it always the (almost) same way? Failing many times is not the problem, but failing the same way all the time is.
Try to adapt your strategy, I think you've shown that you have the mental strength.

 

This has been one of the hardest things I've dealt with during my Nofap journey, that my addiction has actually got worse during the times I've failed. Heavier binges, more extreme porn etc. That said, for a long time I couldn't get any sort of streak at all and then suddenly something clicked and now I've been clean for over seventy days. I do think persistence is the key right here. Work through those thirty day streaks, keep identifying what led to the relapse, what feelings, what activities etc. and try to cut them out. It's a process and a tough one but I genuinely do think it can be beaten.