It started over 20 years ago.

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by brokenmillennial, Sep 22, 2021.

  1. brokenmillennial

    brokenmillennial Fapstronaut

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    I was born in 1989, which means I hit the age of puberty right around the time that the internet became mainstream. Unfortunately for me, this "perfect timing" would end up changing the course of my life, along with the lives of countless others. People around my age were the ultimate guinea pigs. We were the first teenagers in human history to be bombarded with high-speed internet porn.

    At this point, it's quite clear that porn, and maybe the internet itself, has had a devastating effect on society. Porn addiction is off the charts, and so is mental illness. So many people have failed to realize how severe the porn problem is. I've been a slave to porn for so many years that I struggle to remember my old self. It's difficult for me to remember how I used to feel before this addiction took hold.

    Sometimes I wish I was born 10-20 years before I was. I mean seriously, the timing couldn't have been worse. I was 11 in 2000, right as the internet was completely taking over. By time I was 14, in 2003, I can safely say I was a porn addict. I was so young, and thanks to the internet, so fucked up.

    I'm not sure what the point of this post is. Maybe, to warn people much younger than me. Please, get control of your addiction *now*. Before you're 32, filled with years of sadness and regret.
     
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    I want to add another part to this, for myself. I have forgiven myself and my parents for my porn addiction. I've had a lot of time to think about this and I've finally concluded that what happened to me and so many others around my age probably couldn't have been prevented. So in other words, it's nobody's fault. There was no way at the time to realize what kind of problems internet porn would create. I was just young, curious and horny. There was no way for me to know at the time that I was harming myself. I never thought for a second that there would be real consequences as a result of my porn use. By time I did realize that there were problems, I was already in deep.

    I was angry for a long time at my parents, I blamed them for my addiction. I now realize that I was wrong to blame them. I was hurt and just looking for someone to blame, and they seemed like the most obvious choice since they're my parents. Had they known what kind of problems porn would cause me, I have no doubt that they would have made a stronger effort to protect me from it. Like me, they just didn't know. Nobody knew.

    It wasn't my fault that I got addicted, it wasn't anyone's fault. However, it *will* be my fault if I don't get it together and end this addiction once and for all. The ball is in my court.
     
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