It was hard Gentlemen! But always worthy

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  1. Hi! my name is owais( my real name) &i belong to a nuclear family having mother father & just me (so we are 3 members in our family.
    I was introduced to masturbation when i was 14(i.e in my 9th standard) but i was introduced to P in my 6th standard & i was 11 years old during that time & it was my first accidental encounter to the world of filth. It actually happened when i was playing games on my relatives laptop & i accidentally opened his video gallery & it was filled with P when i played the very first video my heart started racing & i felt surprised i started thinking to myself _is it even possible to access this kind of stuff & i closed the video immediately & when i completed my 8th standard (13 years old at that time) & i was going to enter 9th standard my dad gave me an android phone so i got access to unlimited filth & somehow managed to PMO occasionally but after feb 2014 i got indulged into heavy PMO cycle without having any withdrawals & i thought its a very normal thing & after around june 2014 i became chronically sick & i started suffering from heavy sleepiness & chest infection & it took me about 7 to 8 months to recover (maybe my immune system had weakened because of chronic PMO'ing) i still wasn't awared of PMO effects & when i entered 10th standard i was still indulged into PMO'ing but its frequency had decreased because i got involved into board exam preparations that year so i was usually PMO'ing 3 or 4 times a month during that time & my life took a very serious turn when i entered 11th standard(i.e 16 years old at that time) i became very religious guy & somehow went to monk_mode from april to nearly mid of july 2016 but i still wasn't introduced to nofap & then one day in august i was preparing for my exams & a thought of urge popped in my head & i still remember i started searching for the word 'TEMPTATION' & started looking at google images & found a very lil arousing pic & then fapped in less than 2 mins (& wasted my 3.5 months ) & after O i started feeling guilty & it was the day when i encountered my first social anxiety attack but i was still unawared that it was happening due to masturbation & after that i got involved into heavy binge cycle & my brain & body started to suffer.
    i was no more the witty & confident guy anymore my face started losing its shine & i was looking like a zombie & my legs started to shiver while i was walking & i started losing self esteem,confidence & started suffering extreme social anxiety,
    Everyday became a struggle,
    i started suffering from dizziness & i was still unaware that its PMO affecting me & i started searching on google ' is PMO Healthy & found many articles on its benefits so i didnt stop & in 2017 (i was 17) i started PMO'ing every 3 days & had lost my vitality, my nails were looking brittle, my posture was weird, i was even unable to walk correctly & nearly april 2017 i somehow managed to control for 13 days & relapsed on 14 & again started binging & i became worst than ever i started suffering extreme eye contact problems,i started feeling light headedness, extreme level of depression, mood swings & panic attacks & during that time i realized that masturbation is the biggest problem..
    so i started googling for its cure around june 2017 & found nofap site & started my first 90 days challenge but failed after 18 days & relapsed on 19 From that time i started to build healthy habits like running,playing football ,helping parents & also visited a doctor for my panic attacks & anxiety in july/27/2017 & was prescribed paroxetine 12.5 mg & i was still feeling low on it so my doc increased it to 25 mg & somehow after that i succesfully managed to quit for 4.5 months but had many tough withdrawals & lows during streak (maybe because of medicine) & again relapsed in 2018 nearly last days of feb.
    2018 was the year i entered college. Though i hadn't lost all benefits of my 4.5 months streak & i was successfully able to make streak of 14 or 15 days i.e i relapsed once or twice every month.
    In august or maybe september i started edging for the first time & developed extreme edging addiction & then in 2019 i started suffering serious withdrawals like extreme brain fog, extreme hypersensitiveness & extreme form of depression & 2019 was the worst year of my entire life & the best streak i made in 2017 was 23 days & relapsed on 24 in january & this time i can proudly say that
    i am 30 days clean
    (which i have done after 2 years) so 30 days is my best streak since my big streak of 4.5 months
    About benifits i am having better eye contact.
    my social anxiety is decreasing
    my self esteem is improving
    i dont feel low
    i can look anyone in the eye
    i have developed logical reasoning
    & the best of all i am clean :)
    Though lows sometimes hit very hard i feel extreme low at times & social anxiety & anxiety does hit but benefits get noticable..This journey is never smooth but always worth it..
    & Remember Nofap is not a cup of tea
    Be serious
    start your streak & avoid things that act as major trigger. For me its smartphone & its only after stopping my smartphone for a while i became able to make it to 30
    Remember no chance is last chance unless you are dedicated enough
    Nofap definetely does make wonders
    & remember
    "Things that seem forever are just a moment"_ Arousals are just a moment, urges are just a moment... Remember Nofap is always worth it
    #Never Let Your Guard Down
    # I Am On My Way So You must Start Your Own
    # Peace ;)
    Special Thanks to @Suhail22 & @IGY who have been helping me since a long time
    Best of luck for your new streak suhail bro & i hope you are doing fine IGY
    (Love u guys)
     
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  2. IGY

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    It is deeply moving for me to see you posting in the success stories forum Owais. I am so proud of you my dear friend! ❤️

    You have been through agonizing effects of your addiction and the period of extreme edging was particularly brutal. The great thing is not just the numerical achievement of an entire month clean. It is those wonderful benefits that have given you an improved quality of life...
    There is no price for these benefits. I don't call them 'superpowers', because these are the things that should be part of any healthy young man's life. These years of slavery to PMO robbed you of them and now they are returning. Thank God! :)
     
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  3. ReclaimedLife

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    Hey!

    Its really great that you started to overcome this very disruptive habit.
    You will benefit from it intensely in the long run. Especially with every partner you're going to meet.

    Just curious, when you mention "Standard" in regards to your school, where are you from? I've never heard that before.

    And formating would really help the reader to get more into the story. I've really had a hard time reading because it's all one long fluid text.
    For me as a reader, it's much easier if you have some more paragraphs in there : )
     
  4. I am from kashmir man ( a part of india)

    Thx man i just edited it :)
     
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  5. Thats what i do believe pal..Nofap doesn't provide any type of superpowers but it definetely makes you Yourself i;e what you really should be
    Cheers for your 8 months :)
     
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  6. IGY

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    Thanks buddy :)
     
  7. Aha! :D where do u live man?
     
  8. Suhail22

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    Very inspirational story my bro...I am really proud of you..Now you are a motivation and ray of hope for me...Great job!
     
  9. ahighertruth

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    Proud of you.. Keep it up. You have come a long way.
     
  10. winningover

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    Oh, I have heard in International Media that India is brutalizing people of Kashmir a lot for past 1 year with curfew like situation. I hope the situation is better now. Is Kashmir part of India or a disputed territory?
     
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  12. The walking legend

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    Bro my name is fazalesubhan I just looked upon your story and glad that you recoverd i think your are the experienced one here I just wanna a little help from you I have shared my story in the coversation and i m adding you in it plz go through it and guide and help me below one is my story.... plz hlep me bro i will be waiting for your reply
    (My name is Fazalesubhan Khan Kakar and I am 17 years old and will be 18 in this may of 19th 2020 Inshallah. I belong to Pakistan. I started masturbating when I was 11 years old. At that time this habit was just a way of releasing pressure and stress for me, nothing more than that. In fact, I can say that this habit just helps me to forgive my tensions and concentrate on my daily life activities. But when I jumped to the 13th of my age something new came into my life and that was "Pornography". At that time the only thing that was in my mind was a woman is just a pair of breasts and vagina and you have to fuck her only. At the age of 14 pornography took all control of mind and the only thing that always surrounded my mind was, just find a chick(woman) and fuck her. I lived in a joint family with my Cousin sisters and brothers. Masturbation was just like my best friend who always help me in my lonely times. When all family members gather, I just look for free space and get any gadgets and search for porn and masturbate. It just makes me feel better and also weak but I always ignore the second thing. With the passage of time, I just get addicted to porn and masturbation. It was just like a drug for me. I cannot pass a single minute without this drug. Sometimes when I don't get a chance to masturbate, It makes me feel angry as I just wanna kill a person for no reason. Gradually, guys, masturbation and porn started taking my life from me. It just took away my best friends from me and also my family members too. I was just not able to talk to them and always hide from such gatherings which include my friends and family members. I was too much-frustrated that I can not concentrate on anything in my life Either it was related to my studies or any other concerning activity of my life. In fact of being among the people, I feel like I am totally alone and there is nobody who will help me. At the age of 16, I somehow feel weakness in my body and also in the private part of the body. Being a Muslim and belonging to a tribal community I cannot share my problems with anyone, not with my only sister. In my family, I was the elder one and after me was my sister who was just 2 years younger than me. Gradually these problems overcome my mind and I was just like a guy who was totally a drug addict. I spend hours searching for solutions to my problems. I also talked with some so-called Pakistani Islamic scholars but they replied so brutally, some of them said that "Its totally your fault you should think about it before you started it and now you are uncurable. One among them said that you should also not marry a girl in the near future Because you can ruin a girl's life by not making her sexually happy and by not giving her a baby. Trust me guys these were their words and my reaction was to just pick a gun and kill them all on the spot. I accept that I have done wrong in these past years but now I want a change in my life either its the normal one or the sexual one. After so much rejection guys I am now tired enough. These tensions have made me empty from inside. I may be smiling from outside but from inside I am totally finished. I just wanna recover. But whenever I look down to the size of my penis it seems that the scholar was right I will never have that natural desire for sex again and I will also be not able to make my wife(If I got married) happy(sexually) and never will be able to give her a baby and after some time she will also leave me alone as others do. According to me now I am suffering from ED(erectile dysfunction). AND due to this factor, no woman will be ready to get married to me. I just listened about NOFAP on youtube and how it helped people in recovering their self. I have heard about there 90 days challenge in which you have to abstain your self fro watching porn and from masturbation. I also wanna declare here that I stopped both of these habits from last week Friday 20th of the march and successfully restrained my self from both freaking habits for one week this Friday 27th of march my one week challenge completed. But still, I have doubt on my self and I think NoFAP is the last hope for me. My question is if I stopped from doing both of the above things for ninety days will I be able to get my old life will I be able to have my natural sexual desire back will I be able to get married with a girl And can I make her sexually happy and give her a child
     
  13. winningover

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    First of all, you may read my success story in the link below. Yes, you can recover. Recovery is simple but not easy. You need to change yourself inside out, all the way. I don't think planning for 90 days is the right goal. Do you intend to revert back to the toxic porn after 90 days? NO. So why go for 90 days??? This needs to be a lifestyle. Porn doesn't exist for you anymore. Moreover, 90 days are not enough to recover from PIED, DE or PE. It took me 8 months to recover. Like I said, you can read my success story in the link below and approach me if you have any questions. You can recover but do you have the guts and motivation to recover?
     
  14. its disputed one part of kashmir is in india called indian occupied kashmir other part in pakistan called pakistan occupied kashmir...
     
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  15. Remember to eat well, drink more water, exercise for atleast 10 mins every morning &, remember PMO ruined my past 6 years but on day 30 i can proudly say betterment is possible Honestly i dont think 90 days are enough for me maybe it will take 6 or 7 months for me to recover & sometimes extreme lows do hit but nofap definetely does work man ...
    Nofap makes wonders
    stick with it ;)
     
  16. You are a real motivation man ;)
     
  17. SREENII

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    hey man..greetings from india ..if you are pakistani can you identify the person in my profile pic?..it's a pakistani celebrity..it will be difficult to identify but take it as a small challenge..my addiction is related to this profile pic..i have paraphilia which is very weird
     
  18. SREENII

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    hi owais bro..i'm from kerala (south india)..i have a similar story as you and have an addiction history of 12 years..i used to watch porn till late nights and masturbate everyday and wake up like a zoombie..you are only 20 yrs..you can do a lot of things to get back to a normal life in this young age itself..i suggest you to install a good parental control with a strong password protection..it really helped me to complete 6 months streak..if you are interested you can join in the telegram group of nofap started by some of our brothers..i will give you link
     
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    Yeah I do recognize her even though she has a moustache here I do remember her name
    yeahhhhh I got her name is.... Saima Noor and her latest movie is Salute and she playing the role of a mother in this movie you can also search.....for her and for the Movie.....
     
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