Its 1am and I want to masturbate SOOO BAADDD

every time i gets past 1am i get the sex urges really bad. Especially when not much is going good in my life. Currently unemployed, I only have about $100 to my name at the moment. Trying to start a business but failing. Single as can be. Still kinda lost in this world. I'm tired but i can't sleep its a weird feeling, I know that going to get some oil in my hand, coming to bed, and jerking off would feel so damn good, but that why I'm here writing to distract myself. I read and watched that masturbation about 1x/week (without porn) is actually healthy and normal. But I am trying to NOFAP at all. Im about 10 days in and I can't remember the last time I went more than 14 days. Im trying but damn at times its so hard to not masturbate. I remember I used to get so excited to masturbate but now that I'm consciously trying to stop, the battle comes and it comes hard at night. Gonna try to go back to sleep. Goodnight y'all.