It's all wired in our brains...

After miserably failing again, I have come up to the point where PMO is no longer pleasurable. I can no longer feel any pleasure while masturbating, but weirdly enough, whenever the urge hits, the pleasure and fantasies spike! Right after beginning the act, guilt, shame, and just no pleasure at all, all come packed together. I can no longer feel bad about it or have a burst into tears for being weak. It's all so obvious, it's right there, the path of freedom waiting to be reached.
It is just about time and patience! It is all in our minds. We do not need to masturbate, there's really no "urge", our minds are just tricking us.
If you guys are into meditation, I would love being instructed on it.
Afterall, it's our mind we have to fight, not the little piece of hanging meat.
I am no longer keeping back Instagram from my app drawer, I've developed a weird curiosity about checking on different girls' accounts, which somehow even increases my heartbeat and leads me into CRAP. I guess that happens because I have been associating it with my main relapse source. Life is much more beautiful than scrolling down social media, or 21st century's slavery (PMO). I'm sick of it. As I said earlier, I am more than happy to embrace something like meditation into my life. Waiting for your guys' thoughts. It's hard, but so easy at the same time...