I actually find it more enjoyable when I don't use it for a few weeks or longer and then relapse and go on a binge for a full day. Like when I used to use it all the time I didn't enjoy it as much. But going without it for a few weeks or longer and then relapsing and binging for an entire day, I must admit I get extreme pleasure and enjoyment from this. It worries me how much I actually enjoy it sometimes. Like I honestly don't think in that moment there's anything else I would rather be doing. Quite worrying.