Its been 3 months again since i last masturated and now i am again starting to have very strong urges to get my load off. When i watch TV-shows, even the remotely related things are make me drift to sexual fantasies and before my conscious can trigger me to do the right thing (i.e. stop thinking about sexual stuffs) i already have a hard on, and these days i am feeling normal erections i guess.. i say normal cause when i get hard erections these days my dick don't hurt. But everytime i get drifted in such fantasies and everytime i hold back and avoid myself from masturbating, my heartbeat raises and i feel a very minor weakness and when i take a nap for 20mins - everything gets back to normal, until i come across anything that has remotely pretty looking women in it, picture, video, anything.. i just feel this very strong urge that masturbating just once and getting the load off might clear my mind, which it did when i previously masturbated after my reboot, but at that time i felt a bit weak for a few hrs after i masturbated and my biggest worry this time is it might cause some physical damage to me (i know this might be a bit far fetched but i just feel like it). Any advice? is it even remotely ok to just masturbate 1ce to erotic thoughts in shower, just to get the load off?