It's Brutal to reset after 50+Days

God damn it is all I have to say. It wasn't even a "screw it i can't take it anymore" reset--it was a "I didn't have good parameters from the outset cuz i didnt understand this stuff enough" reset.

I edged.

Edging is as devastating as actually orgasming to porn is apparently. Not sure why I thought it was limited to the orgasm...

Anyway, I had definitly achieved the infamous "God Mode" for about the last 15-20 days. I had endless energy, endless desire to absolutely dominate in every way. I was training like a madman, learned a great deal of spanish, started two online business, and positioned myself for a promotion at work. I was also improving considerably with women--going out with 7s and 8s instead of 5s and 6s simply because i was focused enough to put myself out there with hotter and hotter girls on a constant basis and risk rejection.

These past few days I've felt like honestly none of that matters. I just want to float. Thank God I have "systems" in place that I can just go through the motions (the gym, hitting on a few girls a day, showing up for work lol)

But, yeah, I'm a true convert to "hard mode"...even sex is not enough of a desire to not want to achieve if not build on the experience of "God Mode." I mean its god damn indescribable.

Oh, also, it wasn't even like I wanted to edge exactly--I started getting into PE...yeah I know but hey in God Mode you're willing to give anything a shot and who would have believed you actually can make your dick bigger! Anyway I started getting in the habit of getting erect for all the devices involved and it was a wrap...

Sorry to rant--an effect of porn no doubt. I was writing effing eloquently just a week ago! But just want to say don't give up on yourself which is truly what PMO is when youre still recovering. SOOOOO many of your problems will be solved SIMPLY BY RECOVERING. It's absolutely insane. You WILL BE the man you want to be.