...it's gone bad, real bad

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by ChefDeep, Dec 7, 2015.

  1. ChefDeep

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    my brain is officially corrupt. In the last 7 days, I've relapsed 3 TIMES!!!! I've NEVER done something like this before. To make matters worse, I haven't even been horny when relapsing! It's like I force it upon myself to relapse now. I've lost that guilt feeling right after I do it, which is why I believe my brain keeps resorting to PMO whenever I have free time. I NEED TO STOP. Somebody out there, please help me. I've confsidered telling my dad about it tomorrow, what are your thoughts? It's against my religion, so I'm afraid he'll be really angry.
     
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  2. taqwa

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    Head up brother! You are not a bad person. Addiction and morality are totally different things. Many religious intelligent and sensitive people are addicted to one thing or another. It is a life time struggle. If you think your dad will help you and serve as some type of accountability partner, go ahead and tell him. If you think, he will come down hard on you and judge you, I would not tell him. Addiction thrives in shame and secrecy. We are here on this forum to help you. Ask God to forgive you and move on. If it happens again, repeat the process. If you give up, that is when you fail. That is when you think you are more sinful than the unlimited mercy and forgiveness of God, that is impossible. Don't fall in this trap. Stay strong! Win! Check out these posts that will help you tremendously.

    http://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/my-top-tips-for-leaving-pmo-behind.35201/
    http://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/1-solution-to-quit-pmo-permanently.53680/
     
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  3. RdrMGK69

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    Agreed. If u need a spiritual friendI can be here too
     
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  4. Musta

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    That is exactly what's happening to me. It's like I'm doing it as a homework! I don't want to do it and I don't feel like doing it but I just force myself to. It's gone real bad indeed... We need to change that mind set
     
  5. Eagle15

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    Chef I am a devout traditional catholic who goes to mass many times a week and works with religious sisters and teaches Catechism. Many of us have this horrible addiction, even very religious (confession really helps). Let's fight Satan together and we can win. Let's all help each other. I just did 10 days for the first time ever and relapsed on xmas eve! Aye Carumba , you are not alone brother.
     
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    Saint Michael the Archangel, defend us in battle, be our protection against the malice and snares of the devil. May God rebuke him we humbly pray; and do thou, O Prince of the Heavenly host, by the power of God, thrust into hell Satan and all evil spirits who wander through the world for the ruin of souls. Amen.
     
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  7. ChefDeep

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    It is definitely hard once you get in that horrible mind-set. It's like you are avoiding it for many hours but eventually you know you're going to do it. Let's work together to motivate each other and remind each other the truth to this fake feeling
     
  8. hopefulbrain

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    You arent corrupt youre a human seeking dopamine. I myself just returned from a spiraling relapse, its hard but its worth beating.
     
  9. RdrMGK69

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    I SOOO need to get back on track.
     

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