Hi all, New to this forum and at day 4. I'm 27 and have been with my wife now for nearly 8 years (nearly 2 married) and I have had a problem with PMO throughout our whole relationship. I cant count how many times she has caught me and I have promised I would change, every time I stop for a few weeks and then go back again. I need to stop this not only to save my marriage but to save myself, my urges control me and stop me from focusing on the important things in life. She has decided that we need to take a break and separate for a while and I'm worried I will never get her back. I'm scared to lose her and feel my actions have put the breaks on our relationship, when only recently we were talking about having children. I really struggle with expressing myself to her, I can never tell her how I feel and that upsets her. She tells me that my PA makes her feel like I dont love her and I find her unattractive, I tell her that's not true, I think she is beautiful and my PA isn't anything to do with how I feel about her. I know she doesnt believe me or understand that I'm addicted and cant control it. I've been messaging people online which i think is her biggest problem with all of this, she hates that I talk dirty with others and says that's all she can think about when we're intimate. So we're taking a break and having some space from one another, I'm currently sleeping on the sofa and the last few days have been arguments about my PA which has been difficult emotionally and physically. I have started a journal today and will be closing all my accounts down on kik, reddit etc. I'm hoping that writing will help me express how I feel better and possibly find some root causes to my PA and would love to get some advice and hear others experiences throughout the journey. I will be going hard mode as any physical relationship is currently out of the question, but I think this may be the best way to go. Boo.