It's possible to beat transgender porn addiction

Hi guys.Ill start with that im sorry if there is any grammatical mistake cuz English is not my main language but i think you'll still understand what im tryna say.well it doesn't have a matter who i am but one thing is clear,since im here im one of you.im 17 and im straight,new to nofap but I've some experience with it so i just want to share my story to all of you. I'll put all of my experience here about how im dealing with addiction to trans porn and try to help you.so get ready cuz you have a lot to read

From the thread you clearly know what topic im going talk about.well im going to write a lot about myself,what I've been through and im dealing with and some tips and tricks you can use if its helpful. I've been exposed to porn in early ages like when i was 11-12 maybe, it's been so long that i dont even remember it clearly.well as every porn addicts story goes i started with the normal porn.at this time i never knew about dangers of porn and i considered it healthy as my friends were watching it too.i was a really positive person back in a day, tryna look at everything positively.now I can't say that.so started with a normal,soft porn and then i found out about other genres of porn.first one was incest which was shocking.well i never thought about it at that time but now when i think about it i can say that thats how i got addicted slowly to porn.well i didn't like normal soft porn so i went to incest porn,then as it goes,stuff like gangbang, interracial,rape,rough and all these kinds of stuff im not gonna say all of them.i didn't even knew i was addicted but i noticed that i connected my bad mood to porn.when I would've felt down,i would go and watch porn all the time thinking it would make my mood better.it was pretty clear that porn didn't do anything.so story goes on and at the age of 15 started to watch anime.i always thought it was childish but some animes really are great.thats how i got exposed to hentai porn.from hentai porn it went to 3d animations and really unrealistic stuff.i even went to zoophilia porn but the thing is i never enjoyed these stuff.slowly i started noticing my mood change.for a whole day i would rarely feel happy and energetic and thought it was just puberty and everyone has this problem.little did i know porn was fucking up my brain.i got so addicted to it that i would watch and masturbate 7-8 times a day.i would go to the point where my penis was hurting and after orgasm there was no ejaculation.it's whats called compulsive masturbation which happens when your brain gets additced to dopamine and craves for it.i was really successful at school but I noticed i got lazy and what i was doing was i would do my homework at school during breaks and slowly that lazyness started to become stronger.well after that maybe at the age of 15-16 i started watching gay porn.i really don't know how i got into it but i started watching it.maybe it was because of unrealistic animations where sometimes by accident i would see futanari or some shit.i think thats where it started.well even for me or you who is reading this one thing is clear:im straight so why tf i watch gay porn?before that i would go crazy about seeing a hot women and have a shaking orgasm.after that porn just got normal,just not that interesting but i would watch gay porn, masturbate on it and when i reached point of orgasm i stopped watching it,switched back to straight porn and orgasm on it.i was saying to myself that if i didn't ejaculate on gay porn then im not gay.what a stupid thing right?and i was watching these kinds of things rarely but it got more and more frequent until i started to do gay stuff.thats where i realised what i was doing.stopped using gay porn seitched back to normal.at that time when i was using normal porn i never questioned my sexuality because i was still aroused by straight porn.then after gay porn i escalated to transgender,ladyboy porn.and thats what im dealing with right now too.so 2 months ago i had some gastroenterological problems.i had constipation and some serious health problems.i was always interested guy,i always looked and looked for novelty.that played a really big role in developing my unhealthy sexual tastes.my health was really bad and i started to search for symptoms and i got scared because I thought i had cancer in my rectum.that shit really got me.thats where i noticed that my brain gave up and became desensitized.i got severe depression,anxiety.i couldn't feel my body and i was like a zombie.i never enjoyed doing things which made me happy back then.and i think i got nervosis at that point and some kind of obsession of that thought,that i had cancer.i went to doctor and after analyses i got diagnosed that i had pinworms and helicobacter pyori or something.both of these are influencing your mood and physical well being.at that time i even noticed that my porn consumption got decreased.i was watching it like maybe once in 2 days.and later i got porn induced ed.thats where i started to realize everything,literally everything.to be more exact i was watching transgender porn and i was rock hard and i was going to switch to normal porn and then i noticed that it was not doing anything for me now.i got really scared and in a several minutes i got HOCD.started questioning myself why I didn't got hard on normal straight porn and got hard on transgendered person porn.thats where i found out about nofap forum and ybop and that i was not the only one with that problem.that really eased my anxiety.started to read more and more about it.i got so scared that i decided to open up to my parents.thank god that they understood everything and didn't think anything wrong.they started to support me as i started nofap journey.i always questioned my sexuality after that and that addiction got really strong that i wanted to have sex with transgender but i knew i would never enjoy it as masculinity and penis doesn't arouse me now.not even gay porn aroused me.its not part of my sexual orientation as i don't like transgendered people too.if transgendered person doesn't look really feminine it doesn't turn me on tbh.im sorry if i offended anyone but thats how it is.well to think about if im gay or if i like trans,then i would like them on emotional level to but that is something that im 100% that im not attracted to guys either transgenders.thats the main thing u need to realize guys.u just look at them sexually because of porn,no you would never have sex with guy or transgender.thats how it goes for every porn addict.trust me you are not the only one, don't blame yourself because even if it was your ancestor at your place,he would've get addicted to that kind of porn too.ill tell you why later.so started my nofap and tried to abstain myself from porn and masturbation.i was really motivated and decided to go cold turkey.i said that i would never relapse and be a great example to other but i relapsed a lot.thats kind of a problem.like me newbies think that progress is straight but failures are always here and there.u just need to understand a concept of nofap.so my maximum streak was 12 days maybe.and ehat i can say is that its hell in a first week.it was like mini flatline.these urges would become stronger and stronger but i didn't gave up on them and tried to distract myself from it.after a week i noticed drastic changes.i can say that these urges that were so strong that you thought you could never beat are actually beatable and reversible.i was really hopeless and anxious at the first days of nofap but after week everything started to get better.mostly i was getting anxious because i didn't got turned on by girls.no matter how feminine it was,if it was in porn or in real life,there was no interest just nothing.i was looking at girls like walking flesh.after 12 day streak i noticed that it changed.slowly my natural and real attraction came back and i got too naive and tested it.i got normal erection to straight porn but i was still trying to keep myself away from it but i edged and got blue balls.pain was so bad that i couldn't handle it so i relapsed.that got me really nervous cuz i fucked up my 12 day streak.because if bad mood i relapsed 4 times again and noticed that my urges about transsexual porn came back.well i tried to restart but after 3 days i still relapsed.after that i relapsed 2 times again and on the second time i almost relapsed on transsexual porn.i switched to normal porn and masturbated on it.to be more specific now normal transsexual porn doesn't do that much for me, it's just one transgendered person pornstar which i hate to know.i relapsed last today and im going back to my streak again.now i know that changes can be made im more confident and i know that everything will be better.no Matter how hard it gets im gonna fight.i know im addicted to it because if i was not addicted i wouldn't feel disgust and shame and i wouldn't say to myself that what im doing is wrong.gay guy or transgender would never feel that after watching that porn.my libido is gone,when i look at hot women i dont feel anything but it's getting better so im not losing hope.

Now for tips what i can say is that first of all you need to take care of HOCD or OCD if you have it like me.you can go to therapist if its really severe but im trying to deal with it myself.so tips to counter HOCD.me myself would think about past.do you remember when you watched straight porn and would get really aroused?well thats a real sign that you are not gay.do you think transgender porn is for transgenders?no.mostly its base contains straight males because its for straight males when you create tolerance to normal porn so you know that porn is just evil.now that you watch transgendered person and gay porn do you think it's gonna change your sexuality?no it's not.porn is a fantasy with unlimited things.you can just search for your desired pose or clothes or anything and see it in a second.do you feel emotional attraction towards man and transgenders?if no then you are not bi.its easy as that.porn really can fuck your brain up to the point where you don't function properly.it gives you unwanted fetishes which in reality is not you.because if hocd i always watched my behavior if i was acting gay or whatever and if i did something like that i would panic.now what i did was i applied counter thing to it.i examined my normal behavior when i didn't had any hocd thoughts in my head like how i acted masculine or how i chatted with girls or how i felt when i saw group of girls passing by me and small things like that and when hocd struck i would remember that stuff like don't you remember how you felt before?and it helps me.now how to deal with urges.well this thing is the hard one but gets easier trust me.only thing you need to do is to be strong and sensible when urges come back.dont obsess on urge and try to fight it,just forget about it.i know its really really hard but thats how i dealt that urges for 12 days.if you get urges don't try to go somewhere alone, instead socialize if you are nearby anoyone.dont fall in trap.go and do some pushups or run or walk or read or do anything which will help you to not think about urges.i know its hard cuz urges won't leave you but you should force yourself really hard to do something and not fall for it.dont think and dont get nervous about that you have low libido or no interest in girls or you have ED.trust me everything gets better but it will slowly progress if you obsess about it.at my 9-10-11-12 th days i felt much better as urges would come much rarely,even if i was bored or sad and they were much weaker than it was from the start.when you are craving for more dopamine and have urges you really don't feel that its wrong to watch porn which doesn't match your sexual orientation.your brain just wants you to get shortest way to get spike if dopamine.thats why you should be careful.

Now for overall tips i suggest you to keep yourself busy.i know its boring at the start but it gets better.do something productive.start to take care of your life even if you dont feel like it.if you have fantasies and urges just say to yourself that fuck it and that you have more important things in your life.beating porn addiction and porn induced fetishes doesn't only means abstaining yourself from porn but you should start rewiring your brain.another tip is do not touch your penis.thats the most important.do you know what pmo is? It means porn-masturbation-orgasm.its cycle where porn addicts get stuck.so don't touch yourself.another thing which is really important is edging.if you somehow started to masturbate don't do it for really long time as its considered edging,cuz you don't orgasm and just masturbate compulsively.biggest problem is if you do that you are going to get blue balls.itsreally bad thing your testicles become very sensitive and you feel pain in your scrotum and lower abdomen.testicles are so sensitive that it will give you problems while walking.it hurts even in slight touch.there is only 2 ways to treat it but before that u should know if you relapsed.first of all,what you consider as relapse?if you think relapse is ejaculating then you are wrong.relapsing is not being able to control you brain when it craves fir dopamine so you lost control and dopamine got released which affected your rewiring.thats what i consider as relapse.so if you relapsed,if you got dopamine "high" and then edged then the best thing to do is orgasm.at least if you do it don't do it on transgendered person or other fetish porn you have.if there is no way to stop you from relapsing then just please relapse on normal straight porn.its still bad but better than relapsing on fetish porn.if you haven't relapsed and haven't felt dopamine getting released then you should not orgasm.in this case you can take care of blue balls but its not that effective as ejaculating.you can do swuats and aby kind of excercise which moves your leg muscles near your genetial so that blood will get pumped back from scrotum.you can put your balls to cold water or ice,it kind of helps you know but after time pain goes away.thats why you should be careful and not edge.another tip is limiting your mobile use.most of the time porn addicts have other addictions to like me.for example video games,internet addiction,food addiction and these kind of stuff.so limit your phone or any gadget usage to maybe like 2 hours a day.the reason why im saying this is i mostly relapsed because i had access to my phone.ask yourself,would all these stuff happend to you if you never watched porn? it's quite obvious right.you would never have that problem.use filters and safe search,use dns in browser like psrental control dns.use porn blocking apps and lock them and ask someone to put password so you would not know.im using apps like blocker x,porn block plus the best one blocker hero,safe surfer and these stuff really help you.i dont recommend you to track your progress by hoe many days it has ben since you watched porn but you can use apps like mdf and essence to track your progress and motivate yourself.onky willpower and motivation is nit enough to best urges so you know the problem and what you need to do is attack that problem from every side.my recommendation is to read anti porn stuff,even when you feel urges,watch great youtubers like doctor j.k emezi which is a mentor and can help you to fix your porn destroyed life,if you are really ready and commited to pay.you can watch noah church and guy called legacy.stop reading all these stuff cuz mostly your going to find something negative which will impact you but i suggest you to read ybop and nofap succes stories when you feel down.you can get free pdf version of ybop book and trust me it will help you a lot.there is a whole research and everything about transgender or any kind of porn induced fetishes.watch videos if garry wilson, he's the main guy which can really help you a lot.listen to his radio recordings and read his researches cuz it will give you hope and make your mood better if you feel down. don't try to replace porn addiction with other addictions.stoo dopamine fasting.as i know for partner it's really important to have one when you are porn addicted.im still virgin and porn really fucks brain when you never felt how real sex feels.you should search for your soulmate in your recovery and I'm not saying that cuz to have someone you can fuck.no.you should have some strong partner who can support you and cheer you up during your recovery.i don't recommend having sex for first 3-6 months as most people say as it's rewiring your brain i guess but you should be careful at least.from most of the guys experiences it takes minimum 3 months to see drastic change in your porn induced fetishes getting diminished and your true natural sexual tastes coming back.but everything is individual.if nothing changed much in these 3 months for you don't panic because progress is progress and changes will come.anither tip is to use religion.some people don't think that religion can help you but for me it really helps and you should never lose hope as god will never betray you.well if you are atheist or anything you just need to have something,someone who is worth fighting for and for who you dont lose your hope.just don't give a shit about what people think.you can join in support groups where people can help you and so you know that you are not alone.anither thing you can do is let your problems out.if you have someone who you csn trust and know that will understand you and don't think wrong about you tell them about your problem.im saying like when i opened up about this thing my parnts just supported me and helped.you tell about this to your friend which you can trust ir anyone,you can got to therapist. don't spend your time and money on sexologists and neurologists as most of them doesn't believe in porn addiction and are going to tell you thst you swing that way.

I think there is still something which I must've said but i don't remember anything now so that was all i wanted to say.feel free to ask any question and if you want help or someone to talk to im here bros.so just give my your social or anything so i can contact you and i will contact and help you guys as much as i can.peace be upon you.