It's so hard

Remember we are all in this together. We can and will BEAT this addiction! Everything your right now is normal. Just try to remind yourself that these feelings are all temporary. If need a boost that can help you while you recover I would recommend trying this out: www.lumonol.com
It's not a quick fixer but in 2 weeks you should notice a difference in your anxiety and depression level. If you do decide to try some out i would recommend the Lumonol with Lumonol Nova and USE THIS COUPON CODE: (79AB) TO GET $10 OFF. I've been taking it for a while now. It's a herbal supplement so its all natural stuff. It helps me with all those feelings

 

Are you at day 79? I relapse on day 85 and binged hard for 2 months and feeling like shit right now. Don't think of a relapse. This time is temporary. Stay as busy as possible and invest your time and energy in workingout, running/jogging, meditating etc everyday even when u don't feel like doing it. Good luck!

 

The lumonol looks a bit expensive. I have been using the Natrol 5-HTP TR Time Release (serotonin enhancer) from amazon for just $15 and it lasts for a month. It's pretty good and would recommend it to OP to try it once.