I've been addicted for most of my life at this point.

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by brokenmillennial, Aug 21, 2020.

  1. brokenmillennial

    brokenmillennial Fapstronaut

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    Where do I even begin? Well, I've been on this site before which is a pretty common story. My battle with porn stretches back many years. I'm 31 now and I've been looking at internet porn since I was 11, I was a full blown addict by time I was 14. My addiction has cost me so much and I have so much grief and anger over my continued struggle with this. I've had one relationship in my life and it was ultimately destroyed by my addiction, I've been alone ever since going deeper and deeper into a pathetic and miserable lifestyle. For the past 5 years I've worked minimum wage jobs off and on, smoked weed, surfed the internet and melted my brain on Tumblr and Discord.

    I've never felt so low but at this point it almost feels like my brain is so warped, so broken that there's no coming back. I'm here again, so a part of me is still willing to try but I'm in deep and I feel comfortable saying that my porn addiction has ruined my life.
     
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  2. engelman

    engelman Fapstronaut

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    Now that you've come to that (very likely true) affirmation, try to analyze yourself, study/read books about the topic (but also about motivation, self-improvement and things like that), have a healthier diet, practise sport and, above all, stay away from your source of sorrows (PMO).

    Sure you have a lot of potential waiting to be discover ...
     
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  3. palindromo

    palindromo Fapstronaut

    Welcome
    Please, start studying carefully what's happening in your mind > https://oceanrecoverycentre.com/2016/07/the-ultimate-guide-to-overcoming-internet-porn-addiction/

    First time without porn will be stressful , but if you resist , in some months you will feel reborn.

    If the first times a person relapse easly, it's okay.
    The streaks becomes even longer , day by day.
    Don't porn anymore, it's better to struggle and at the last to relapse than to look at porn.
    No more instagram pictures of models. No more erotic imagines , erotic stories or erotic asmr.
    If you experience ''flatline'' and low libido , resist.
    > https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/por...l-size-and-or-libido-are-decreasing-flatline/

    An effective weapon to overcome urges and thoughts : mindfulness.
    The brain will try to win you and to get some triggers for the seek of dopamine. Resist
     
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  4. brokenmillennial

    brokenmillennial Fapstronaut

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    The real pain comes from the potential that I've already wasted.
     
  5. engelman

    engelman Fapstronaut

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    Well, you can do nothing to change that. Now don't worry about the past and focus on your future
     
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  6. brokenmillennial

    brokenmillennial Fapstronaut

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    It's literally all any of us can do.
     
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  7. Marshall 5

    Marshall 5 Fapstronaut

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    Welcome back. Yes, it’s real pain, many of us have felt it. But you must look forward and transform regret into motivation. Think of it as potential delayed, not wasted. Age is such a funny thing. 31 seems so old to a 21 year old, but so young and full of possibility to a 41 year old. You’ve got a great decade, your thirties, still there to be lived to the full. One day at a time, fight, man! Add daily exercise and a good diet to your battle. You will be amazed how much change you can see already in a matter of months. Good luck!
     
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  8. Carpediem77

    Carpediem77 Fapstronaut

    Broken, use this site and people to your advantage. there are so many of us with similar experiences.. Almost all of us have wasted so many hours of our lives, our potential to this sickness.. Use that feeling every time you think of P/M to fuel u to get better.

    if we didn't experience the lows in our life , we will never be humble in our lives..

    if we take this one day at a time,we can make our lives better..
     
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