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I've been on this journey for over a year and half and I feel like I lost all my progress.

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Gremlin3, Mar 26, 2020.

  1. Gremlin3

    Gremlin3 Fapstronaut

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    I need some advice on how to get back on track to doing 90 days and ridding myself of porn addiction.

    Ill try to keep this short as possible/

    I started "nofap" in July or August 2018 but didn't read up on it much so I continued to browse porn while trying not to masturbate, needless to say during this stage I never lasted very long and wasn't really in the process of healing either. Once I started it seriously and tried to avoid porn I began to have longer streaks and currently have several 30+ day streaks under my belt.
    However, I always either kept returning to porn (mostly fetish stuff) or "Youtube Try on Hauls" and relapse.
    During February and early March I was doing really good on a 36 day streak, but got very depressed on either the 10th or 11th of March and started watching try on haul videos and ejaculated without touching which made me even more discouraged. Ever since then I've relapsed 7 or 8 times by masturbating to youtube and even recently PMOd to fetish porn. The morning of March 25th was my most recent where I did it twice. I often feel like I have no control when I'm relapsing. I can't stop thinking about my fetish shit.

    I realize that I must not look at any erotic imagery and try to abstain from dwelling on fetish thoughts. I also realize that I need to get a productive hobby that I actually enjoy.

    But my main question is what is the best course to get back on track. I am currently "planning" on masturbating on the 31st without using porn and then trying for 90 days again, just to give my self a "fresh start". I never felt as terrible after fapping to my imagination than when I fully PMOd. I feel terrible and full of guilt currently.

    I appreciate anyone taking the time to read this thread and reply.

    P.S.
    This had been my worst month for nofap since probably July of last year.
     
    Last edited: Mar 26, 2020
  2. I have a similar story to yours. Lots of good streaks some a month-long and other just a week or so (just made this account to get serious).

    Thoughts for me include: Limiting screen time, walking/exercise, and planning my future. For example, when I am on the computer I keep the door open and once I've been at it for a while I'll get up and do something outside, cook/meal-prep, or read a book (a kindle could work, or paper book).

    What would work for you as a hobby is, of course, subjective but I bet there's something. If not, going on walks and listening to podcasts has really been great for me and I recommend it.

    Big support.
     
  3. MrYang29

    MrYang29 Fapstronaut

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    For me, it just simple brah. Take your focus on work, i suppose to work 10-12 hours a day so i barely have a chance to think about erotic thought that much.

    And when the urges hit you, just observe it and use that sexual energy to drive you on your purpose even more. Urges are like a cloud, it'll pass my brotha.
     
  4. Gremlin3

    Gremlin3 Fapstronaut

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  5. Lion's Roar

    Lion's Roar Fapstronaut

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    I know this method is some kinds of strange to you. But in my country and China it worked with a lot of cases.
    I and my 2 other friends do experienced the effect of this method. Note that all 3 of us used to masturbate. So I strongly confirm the effectiveness.
    The last time I masturbated was in 2017.

    Try this: The Buddhist Shurangama mantra


    To learn the pronounce, watch this:


    It is the "urge smasher" mantra.

    Recite it once a day, everyday.

    Please abandon all PMO forever! Please get a healthy and sociable life. Help the people in your neighborhood or local area.
    --/////--
    Case of a Chinese man:
    Masturbation make your life difficult!

    When I take a general view on my past, most are failures. The time before, girls were flirting with me, now I chase after them but no one care. I incidentally meet a website “The [Buddhist] precept of No sexual misconduct” on the internet, I learned many good things, realized: “Masturbation make life difficult, poor, fail in every work”. The website “Precept of No sexual misconduct” taught me about the consequences of masturbation, and also introduce to me the miracle of the Shurangama Mantra. I used to be an atheist, from the first sight, I just wanted to make a test. Every day before going to bed, I spent time to recite the mantra just one round. In spite of not understanding the meaning of words, the miracle appeared. Now, mostly full time I don’t have any sexual desire, or thought toward girls. Every time I encounter any scene of lovemaking or sexy girls on TV shows, I don’t have any libido. At first I thought I had Hypoactive Sexual Desire Disorder (HSDD). But after had a health check, a doctor laughed and told me that my health is absolutely OK at every aspect. So I stopped worrying. The time before, each time I encountered beautiful girls, desire rose, my mind was floating. But now in all situations, my mind doesn’t have any thought of sexual desire. I just observe the beautifulness of those girls as they appear. I have vowed to keep the No sexual misconduct precept, and have an ethereal life on both mind and body. Up to now, I have kept that precept for one month. But it cannot be called “keeping”, because my mind doesn’t contain those sexual thoughts, so lead to no commit. I no longer want that thing, so the precept is naturally being kept. Today, I incidentally measure my height, it increased. Now my height is 180cm. Moreover, in spite of the study program in Germany is consider difficult even to the German students, I passed input examination easily with very high score. It makes me really happy. My work is progressing smoothly. My friends introduced me to work as a interpreter for some large commercial companies, because I’m really good at foreign languages: English, French and German.

    I remember when I was still masturbating, because of it, my blessing was reduced, so I met difficulty when I was applying for jobs. I could only be a interpreter at restaurants. But since I have vowed to keep No sexual misconduct precept, determined to learn Buddhism, I found a really good position with amazing high salary. At least I can earn 10.000 euros per month. Since I have started to learn Buddhism, to be a virtuous man, my life changed so much! Now my body is athletic, my appearance is bright. When I was playing soccer, other players exhausted and crawled on the ground but my stamina was still full, didn’t feel tired. My memory has also become very good, because I can remember at least 80% when taking a look on any text. I’m confident, strongly believe I can graduate successfully, able to catch up my classmates, in spite of they have far surpassed me. Thanks to No sexual misconduct precept, my dignity restored, became virtuous, live with worthy of being a human and able to create a bright future as wishes.

    Sincerely share with you my valuable experience. Hope you my friends abandon all evil. Dear men and women, let’s keep the No sexual misconduct precept.
     
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