I've been thinking about suicide guys..

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by neo97, Aug 7, 2019.

  1. neo97

    neo97 Fapstronaut

    I know this is a harsh thing to do, I mean like, I've been trying my best today to at least to not masturbate and watching porn. But, I'm a failure. Even a 2 weeks time, I cannot handle myself. Some of you guys are so strong and some can hold themselves for about 3 months straight. I don't know guys, somehow sometimes, I think God was so cruel to me. I've been praying, begging and it srist ends up like this. I'm just thinking my life now doesn't bring anything good to me, sometime I just hope to actually die...
  2. I’m sorry to hear you are struggling. Rebooting has its ups and downs, just like life. We see many people experiencing ups and downs during reboot, and though it may be hard to see now, these feelings won’t last forever. It will get better with time if you’re patient and wait.

    In the meantime please seek professional help. I know the idea of calling a helpline might terrify you, but in times of crisis we often need someone there to put our life into perspective. So please contact someone that can help and don’t hang up on them.

    The international association for suicide prevention maintains a list of suicide prevention hotlines for countries all over the world.

    If you don’t feel like talking to someone on the phone, they maintain a list of online instant messaging suicide prevention resources.

    You are not alone in this. There are ways to treat depression. Please contact people that can help you. Being depressed often makes you feel like you don’t have anymore options. But that is a lie. That is just the depression talking. These feelings you have won’t last forever. We are in this with you and will be cheering for you to get through this!
  3. Are you in the United States?
    Suicide is preventable. Get free help now!

    Text CONNECT to 741741 from anywhere in the USA, anytime, about any type of crisis.
    A live, trained Crisis Counselor receives the text and lets you know that they are here to listen.

    The volunteer Crisis Counselor will help you move from a hot moment to a cool moment.

    Neo I’m not a trained counselor but I can tell you a few things that are inherent truths.
    The fact that you are here on NoFAP, the simple fact that you are brave enough to confront your problems and reach out for help puts you on the path of change.
    Acting tough pretending to be invincible and macho, not processing emotions, that is toxic and weakness!
    You are not weak, I don’t need to know you. You are here that’s how I know.

    The most important thing is to remember is that this is not permanent. You will not always feel this way, but death is permanent.. I don’t know your life but I do know that we are both fighting to get rid of porn and in that we share something. There is a life that exists, it is there and it is porn free and it is YOURS. But if you end your life you will never see that life. If you give up that is the end of your journey and no body knows what lies behind that door. Nobody.
    Don’t give up, this too will pass do you here me!? This will pass, this moment these feelings but right now it’s really important you at the very least text the hotline above and share your story there ok. It’s ok to share
    Your brave for posting neo. You are and it will pass, it will get easier. You know what the hardest part is? Beginning. And your here you’ve begun. YOU are already on the path! Even if you can’t see it, even if you don’t feel it. YOU ARE HERE
  4. Beingcowboyishard

    Beingcowboyishard Fapstronaut


    Watch this video dude
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  5. JonShawn

    JonShawn Fapstronaut

    Honestly, I have been there before, I so hear you. For me I felt like my life was wasting away. I would try my best to reach 90 days but after (at most) two weeks, I would relapse and have little to nothing to show for my efforts. It was discouraging looking at other's streaks too, seeing how far they were able to make it. It feels like a trap. That you will end up going nowhere. I promise you it will get better. Every time you relapse, try to make one fundamental change for your next streak (maybe you don't bring your phone into your room or get rid of your smartphone all together). If you are able to change one thing each relapse, you will be surprised how much easier it will get on future streaks. This stuff takes time, you are on the right track!

    And please check out the links that @Tiger uppercut! and @NamaClature14 have posted, it may be terrifying but you will not regret it.
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  6. fapequalsdeath

    fapequalsdeath Fapstronaut

    Wellll, if you're so masochistic to commit suicide why don';t you go work in a construction or some heavy labour. You'll be so exhausted that you won't have time to think about anything, that's how it works with me.
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  7. You need to join the Army or a special force.Die with glory.
  8. I swear to god you will be a top notch soldier/marine/air marshal.Your not scared of death.
  9. Enwar

    Enwar Fapstronaut

    Please know that God loves you. Keep going, and trying, mate. When you have the desire to watch porn, use all of the will that you have to get up and go outside. Take a long walk outside without looking at your phone at all, although you can take it with you just in case you need to make a call, but only to make a call.
  10. Tigresswild

    Tigresswild Fapstronaut

    Please pray. Talk to God in anyway you can.
  11. Suicide prevention hotline. 1-800-273-8255
    Available 24 hours everyday
    Killing yourself wouldn't change anything. You have many things you can accomplish in this world.
    I wish you hope and love
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  12. I have also thought about suicide but it is not worth doing, it would cause your family a worse pain than yours, don't give up this has a solution.
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  13. ImpureHuman

    ImpureHuman Fapstronaut

    Sorry to know about your situation.

    Thoughts about suicide won't help you anyway,. I have been there, with a slightly different thought, I don't want to kill myself, but if it happen, I have no problem with that, I felt I don't want to exist anymore without meaning or purpose. May be your are depressed with some aspects of you. U are good in many ways.

    Take time to ease the tight strings of thoughts in your mind. It will get better once you find the space in mind. I know that for sure..
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  14. scarecrow1

    scarecrow1 Fapstronaut

    First up don't be discouraged by the counter. we got no way of knowing if people are being honest. i for one am only counting time away from porn and not masturbation. embarrassingly enough i jerked off just there on Tuesday
    Obviously you need to find some passion in your life be it a hobby or sport.

    can i ask if you have any friends or family? Please open up to them and hint about how you feel.

    Also take a look at my previous posts on here to someone suicidal.
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  15. ryguyuplift

    ryguyuplift Fapstronaut

    I met my therapist on the suicide hotline at 22 years old. I've been suicidal most of my life, but I'd never go through with it. I'm sticking it out as long as possible. After that, we'll see. But, I was on drugs at the time and went psychotic. I literally lost my mind. Suicide was the only way out.

    Fast forward 7 years and I've completely transformed my life. I still have my struggles, as we all do, but all in all, I've made a complete transformation. I did this through working my ass off in therapy and on myself. I got off of drugs, and eventually off of antidepressants. I lost my virginity, changed my social circle, went back to school, got a job, and bought a house. I've been in relationships with women and started an online business.

    Life is hard dude. Life is fucked. Especially for guys like us that got off to a rough start and compounded this by making bad decisions. Your life is the result of your parents/ancestor's decisions, as well as your own decisions. The only way to make it better is to work your ass off to make better decisions. Be kind to yourself and others. Make the world a better place both for yourself and others. Help yourself so you can help others. Help yourself by helping others. Provide value and you will reap what you sow in other peoples lives.

    Don't be thrown off by how hard life is. Yes, life can be cruel, but also beautiful. If you don't understand and respect nature, you will feel it's wrath. But, if you get on nature/God's good side, you will live a life of wonder. Life is a journey, and yes, it is extremely difficult. Keep pushing yourself and working on yourself. Start with quitting porn. Addictions, like my drug and porn addiction, compromise your reward pathway, leading to depression and suicidal thoughts. Work on recovery and getting off the porn. Work on yourself. You can't change the past, but you can work on your future to make it the best possible. Many people have done it before. You're not alone. Millions of people have made horrible decisions and fucked their entire lives up, because they were just so depressed that they just didn't care. Was it their fault? I don't know. Yes and no. But, they've been able to turn their lives around and learn from their mistakes with the help and support of others. We're all supporting you and rooting for you bro.
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  16. Overforme

    Overforme Fapstronaut

    It gets better man. Forget about what wrong you have done and start putting plans in place to do what's right.
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