I've gone back to my old ways...

[FezMan76]

I've thought that I could beat this addiction on my own. I was wrong. I stopped coming on the site for some time now (I'd say half a month to a month) and I had the stupid mentality that oh maybe if I step away from NoFap the guilt will go away and I'll quit the addiction quicker haha. This has been the worst mistake I've made in my recovery so far. I've indulged in porn once more(not hardcore tho) from mostly reddit and other p-subs like Instagram. I've nearly given up the self-improvement life style that I was working towards throughout all of last year. Ever since the beginning of 2021, things have not been very good for me.
Now I am asking for help. What should I do??? I had plans to finally ask a girl out, start going to the gym more, and live a better life but it all seems to be falling apart so rapidly. I am starting to become the douchy-always-sleep deprived depressed-looking teen that I began as with an impaired sense of humor, emotional numbness to a lot of things, and occasional aggressiveness towards minor things.
I feel more lonely now than ever before, even though I am starting to see my friends more as the pandemic measures loosen up. Maybe it's because they don't share my ideals, or maybe it's because my mind is tricking me into feeling distant from them to stay with porn. Also I even think that I am overeating once again.
I feel very lost right now. Please help me.

 

[ShotDunyun]

One thing I noticed with myself is if I'm not 100% putting my all my best I always end up resetting or relapsing. Things like not deleting P on my browsers or checking Instagram models don't let me to get past a week. This streak I deleted all P and Instagram and I'm making progress.

I also like to make a plan because I inevitably always get bored since I'm not wasting hours watching that trash, and after a while TV and video don't cut it anymore. Working out helps me a lot to have my mind occupied and to burn all that energy that you get while on NoFap. And now I need to find other things to do since I'm going crazy on weekends.

And remember, if I can do it, anyone else on earth can do it. Nofap is incredibly difficult but it's also worth it, just go one day at a time and you'll be fine

 

[Deleted Account]

What should I do???

Honestly buddy were in the same boat. Although for me I lost my game into talking with woman at work or out side. As far as I'm concerned I'm not just not up to standards but I feel I'm a 7-8 out of 10 without the apartment six pack or muscular jock body. I do sense some looks from woman some times or its just my imagination. As much as I'm praying right now I'm not sure if its getting threw like it used to do for me. I've seen so many miracles happen threw praying when I was in my early 20's. Some things honestly the next day..

What really helped me in the past. Was having a solid group of friends to communicate and chat with especially at night. I could express my emotions more easily and with people who would understand. The next thing that made me feel amazing was getting outside during the day for at least an hour. Feeling the natural drift of air or beating sun on a hot day. Listening to my favorite kind of music that made me feel good. It left myself feeling more energized and natural in a sense. I always listened to uplifting music as well. Some times depressing but always something that would lift my mood. Like Uplifting Trance or Electronic Music with happy riffs.

Keep uplifting yourself my friend. As of right now its hard for me because of the adult life. Work really takes allot out of you mentally and physically.

 

[FezMan76]

One thing I noticed with myself is if I'm not 100% putting my all my best I always end up resetting or relapsing. Things like not deleting P on my browsers or checking Instagram models don't let me to get past a week. This streak I deleted all P and Instagram and I'm making progress.

I also like to make a plan because I inevitably always get bored since I'm not wasting hours watching that trash, and after a while TV and video don't cut it anymore. Working out helps me a lot to have my mind occupied and to burn all that energy that you get while on NoFap. And now I need to find other things to do since I'm going crazy on weekends.

And remember, if I can do it, anyone else on earth can do it. Nofap is incredibly difficult but it's also worth it, just go one day at a time and you'll be fine

Honestly buddy were in the same boat. Although for me I lost my game into talking with woman at work or out side. As far as I'm concerned I'm not just not up to standards but I feel I'm a 7-8 out of 10 without the apartment six pack or muscular jock body. I do sense some looks from woman some times or its just my imagination. As much as I'm praying right now I'm not sure if its getting threw like it used to do for me. I've seen so many miracles happen threw praying when I was in my early 20's. Some things honestly the next day..

What really helped me in the past. Was having a solid group of friends to communicate and chat with especially at night. I could express my emotions more easily and with people who would understand. The next thing that made me feel amazing was getting outside during the day for at least an hour. Feeling the natural drift of air or beating sun on a hot day. Listening to my favorite kind of music that made me feel good. It left myself feeling more energized and natural in a sense. I always listened to uplifting music as well. Some times depressing but always something that would lift my mood. Like Uplifting Trance or Electronic Music with happy riffs.

Keep uplifting yourself my friend. As of right now its hard for me because of the adult life. Work really takes allot out of you mentally and physically.

Thank you brothers. Although I have already deleted P and Insta off my devices, I guess it's just being terribly unoccupied and bored and feeling lonely that keeps me going back to that bad stuff. I'll take your advice however.

 

[jpjohnp]

Hey man I just started my no porn journey today! Even the fact that you are jumping back in is helpful to me you can do it. On a practical note there are a few email filters that will email your search history to a group of friends that you choose. I don't know if those would be helpful but they are covenant eyes and xxx church. I think they are both Christian websites but the premise is sound.