I've thought that I could beat this addiction on my own. I was wrong. I stopped coming on the site for some time now (I'd say half a month to a month) and I had the stupid mentality that oh maybe if I step away from NoFap the guilt will go away and I'll quit the addiction quicker haha. This has been the worst mistake I've made in my recovery so far. I've indulged in porn once more(not hardcore tho) from mostly reddit and other p-subs like Instagram. I've nearly given up the self-improvement life style that I was working towards throughout all of last year. Ever since the beginning of 2021, things have not been very good for me. Now I am asking for help. What should I do??? I had plans to finally ask a girl out, start going to the gym more, and live a better life but it all seems to be falling apart so rapidly. I am starting to become the douchy-always-sleep deprived depressed-looking teen that I began as with an impaired sense of humor, emotional numbness to a lot of things, and occasional aggressiveness towards minor things. I feel more lonely now than ever before, even though I am starting to see my friends more as the pandemic measures loosen up. Maybe it's because they don't share my ideals, or maybe it's because my mind is tricking me into feeling distant from them to stay with porn. Also I even think that I am overeating once again. I feel very lost right now. Please help me.