Back from the retreat I found our that my husband was searching all my private data, looking at my downloads, mail attachments, photos,... He was like absolutely insane. He did not tell me. Kicked him out of our house. He went to a hotel. The one close to his favorite whore house. Said he was not there. Just chose the hotel because of the good standard and rates. Everything was really bad. Then we could catch up a bit,.. We went to therapy together, he gave me the money he spent on prostitutes. So it was not from our account. Now he is in therapy again. I am looking for a Trauma therapist. I still can't sleep at night, it is so killing me and it hurts me so so much.