Journal of beating PAWS/Flatline!

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by sikreodds97, Aug 13, 2020.

  1. OhWhenThe

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    It's strange how it affects people differently.

    My only real streak of length was two months. First two weeks I just felt meh, I have all the symptoms of excessive porn use but that's been my "norm" for so long now. Then weeks 3-5 I felt horrendous, every withdrawal symptom going, all cranked up to the max. Managed to get through it but it's not like I felt great after it, between weeks 6-9 I just went back to that "meh" state. After that I relapsed, although my libido did come back at the end so maybe good feelings were on the horizon before I screwed up.

    How were you feeling before starting nofap out of interest?
     
  2. sikreodds97

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    Yeah its weird man, cant get my head around PAWS and flatlines in general.

    Well i was feeling like shit because i was so addicted to PMO. I saw how my PMO use over the year destroyed me. When i first started having streaks i would feel really good and see the benefits and it opened up a whole new life for me. However after day 20-30 i would always have withdrawal. I rode these benefits streaks for a long time and when i started taking it serious with the long streaks i started having bad withdrawal which have continued all the way till now. 3 years with about 20 relapses i would say. Zero binges.
     
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  3. sikreodds97

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    Day 118 update: Been rough as usual. Social anxiety and depression just never leaves. Its hard to keep a job down. Is it still paws after all these streaks? Probably. Am i permentantly damaged? I fucking hope not. :( I will keep going but man can god please bless me with a good day so i know that its paws. Please!
     
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  4. Younameit

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    you're not permanently damaged, the breakthrough has happened, I know how to solve this issue
     

  5. It´s Psicological. Only only Psicological.
     

  6. Take a good look at what you are saying:

    You don't even know what you're feeling. This most likely leads you to misinterpret your emotions.

    It is very possible that you are normal.

    If you have been doing an addiction since you were 12 years old, that means that you have to start discovering what you are like without that addiction (in this case pornography addiction).

    For example: You get out of a Ferrari car where you were riding a thousand miles an hour to learn how to enjoy riding a bicycle. That's what happens when you give up an addiction. We stop receiving tons of dopamine in our minds, to learn to enjoy life in a more normal way. You may feel that normality as you get used to it.

    Here's some advice for you: Reading about PAWS in these threads will not help you, on the contrary, it will create more hypochondria in you. I recommend you not to visit this place too much.
     
  7. sikreodds97

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    How to solve it brother?
     
  8. sikreodds97

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    You clearly know nothing about addiction and neuroplasticy. Before this addiction i was a happy kid who felt love and pleasure. When i started masturbating i got addicted and slowly it destroyed my neurons and downregulated them which gave me anxiety and depression. When i stopped i would feel awesome again but then the healing process happened(aka paws) and since then i have felt so bad while my brain is healing. PAWS/the healing proccess can last up to 3 years. There are thousands of success stories about it not just with PMO but with any drug. Some people have this prolonged withdrawal and then they get better after 1 year, 2 years, or even in severe cases more. The brain has the power to heal itself when we give it enough time. Its more complex than you think. Its not normal to go around with insane anxiety, insane depression, cant feel love, cant socialise, thinking about suicide everyday even tho i have had no trauma and a great childhood. Its the dopamine and serotonin receptors that are fucked and are getting healed. Be careful to say to someone its psychological or "only" in the head. Many neuro scientists can easily back up all the PAWS symptoms and how the brain heals from years of addiction.
     
  9. Younameit

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    I'm preparing the thread and gathering all the info necessary that I have to convey, it will be a mini book with a few pages
     


  10. Maybe it's because you started very early in life.

    Nothing like this has ever happened to me.

    I have had 4 months in hardmode. Is good, However, Sometimes watching porn. For example: Today I used.

    I started PMO at age 24 for the first time.



    Maybe that's why I've never felt PAWS.


    Start using porn as an adult



    Men who start in PMO when they are older do not get hurt as much as a teenage brain.
     
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  11. sikreodds97

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    Day 121: Had some better days these last 2 days. I have started to listen to Brain regeneration frequencies by sapien medicine, dont know if there is a correlation. I feel like my testosterone have been higher these past days. As im writing this its kinda faded but i still feel ok. Nice to have days where the symptoms arent fucking me as much and my confidence has been higher too. Of course still no where near normal, but its nice. Gotta keep going, meditate, try the frequencies out, exercise.
     
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    Day 121: Had some better days these last 2 days. I have started to listen to Brain regeneration frequencies by sapien medicine, dont know if there is a correlation. I feel like my testosterone have been higher these past days. As im writing this its kinda faded but i still feel ok. Nice to have days where the symptoms arent fucking me as much and my confidence has been higher too. Of course still no where near normal, but its nice. Gotta keep going, meditate, try the frequencies out, exercise.
     
  13. Spriritofawarrior

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    hmm something sounds fishy. weren't you the guy that made a post about coming out of a 2 year flatline on reddit?? i knew it was a lie all along, why lie about something like that?
     
  14. sikreodds97

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    To clear this up, i am NOT sikreodds97 from reddit. His story inspired me so much so i named myself after him :D
     
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    Day 136: Still standing. Will never die and never fall. Symptoms have been hard lately as always. Its absolutely insane to only have a few "better" days every 2nd month or so. After 4 years of different hard mode streaks. Unbeliaveble..
     
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    Day 141: Anxiety better today, clearer speech and a little deeper voice. Sexual energy is increasing so i gotta be careful. Going for some cardio tommorow to transmute that person. Its not much but its honest work, gotta remember the days where life isnt hell. Helps me get through all of this. Gotta keep going, no relapses!!
     
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    Day 145: 4 and a half months today, sometimes i get better days but for the most time its just the same. I was a huge PMO addict, maybe i have permentantly fried my brain or maybe i need a clean hard mode streak 24 months without any relapses. Time will tell
     
  18. OhWhenThe

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    You are doing great man.

    Do you ever get moments of weakness where relapsing becomes a possibility or are you just completely over that now?
     
  19. sikreodds97

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    Thank you man. I defiently have days and even weeks where my libido is higher and urges are higher. I never get urges to watch porn, the problem is i get urges to ejaculate and have sex sometimes. I have kind of trained my brain to not do that kind of stuff so of course it is a little easier because i have been practicing for the past 4-5 years. But yes i do still get urges and have to deal with them
     
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    Day 151 Checking in
     
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