Journal of beating PAWS/Flatline!

Give it time....!
I'm still not cured totally but I'm approaching toward the light slowly.

The longer or more we indulged in pmo the more time its gonna take to heal.

 

600 days , suffering everyday

 

Really interesting and inspirating story. Keep going bro.

I'm at the beginning of this long journey, and I have severe HOCD besides the flatline and it's really hard to cope with them. :/

Actually I start 18 days ago, and between day 5 and day 12 (or so) I was felt like I completely healed, got back my old life. I was getting hard on girls, imagine kissing them/hug them, you know, that loving and caring feeling...but then it suddenly disappeared from one day to another and HOCD hits in again. I sometimes just think that what if im just in denial...but when I thinking about this "question" I came to the conclusion that it just simply can't be that im gay because when I hat that week between day 5 and 12 or so, I totally felt str8 and I was sure that I want a wife, kids, protect and care a woman, etc. When I'm having these "gay thoughts" they are always appearing on bad,depressive and anxiety days....I hope it's just really hocd and flatline, and not that I'm gay...However if I would be gay, I could not felt very well and myself in that week between day 5 and 12 when I was totally into girls and only have thoughts/urgres about them...what ya think?

 

Man dont ever give up we are in this together.I feel same as you.Iam currently on day 150.I been heavy addict from 12 to 15 years old then i found NoFap.My first streak was 120 days long it was perfect superpowers were great.But after that for last 2 years its been nothing but suffering.I had 3x 50 day streaks 3X 100+ day streaks.But everytime i relapsed cause of paws.And I went to binge relapsing for about 3 days which iam not proud of.But now I wont relapse I havent got single urge to watch porn since day 70.I think I might recover much sooner since I really been addicted for 3 years max so I would say i will feel superpowers at day 300.But unfortunately you might take 2-3 years to recover since you been heavy addict for 7 years.Just remember the superpowers and remember that there are people here for you never give up we are all in this together!

 

Yeah I do but the absolute worst it gotten was at day 30.I was so socially anxious my eyes started watering when talking to strangers.It looked like I was about to cry.Now I do have social anxiety but its much better.We just need to wait it out bro it will get better for us soon.

 

Yeah me too i been on nofap for 2 years now and no improvement.My theory is that after every relapse its sets you back about 50 days.So if you binge relapsed like I did after every failed streak then youre back at start.Its all or nothing .Either you do it without relapses or you will be back at start everytime.I could be wrong.I will wait till I hit 1 year mark and then I will decide whenever i want to continue or not.But those withdrawals like hopelessness,emotional instability,inability to feel any pleasure,anxiety,depression are killing me.I just want it to be over.But I cant give up now I will make it.WE ARE GONNA MAKE IT!!

 

From my experience, it will depend on tbe person on how many days a relapse gonna set you back. If your body produce testosterone or sperm a lot, that will affect the amount of days.
However, if you have PAWS and in the beginning or middle of it you relapse, that could start you over because your brain is in the process of unrewiring during the reboot.

 

Are you alright man? You sound like youre depressed and hopeless.If something happened and you need somebody to talk to pm me I am here for you.

 

@sikreodds97 , have you checked ur testos level at the doctor ?

 

Just hang on man benefits will come back soon.I wanted to give up too cause at day 160-180 i been at the lowest point.And you know who helped me through it?You!Now I am starting to feel better 0.5% every day emotional flatline dissapeared only the no sex drive flatline and anhedonia is present.And like the guy before me said get yours testosterone levels checked.Or you could start working out if youre not working out already and taking suplements.It does help especially ecdysterone,vitamin D3,ashwaganda,and creatine.It will bring your Testosterone up which could cause superpowers or benefits to come back.If you ever will consider relapse pm me bro I will help you through this hell.We will make it dont worry!