I'm starting nofap to be the partner my wife deserves and the father my son deserves. I have been in a PMO cycle since about the age of 12. Now 35. I know it's going to be tough to break this habit. My wife doesn't mind my use of porn and knows about it, but I don't believe she understands the extent of my reliance on it. I believe it has warped my view of sex and created and strengthened a whole host of fetishes which frankly I don't want or need. I suffer from OCD and anxiety in general and I have grown ever more reliant on using porn to self-medicate. If I feel I can't cope and the anxiety is too much I'm straight to the bathroom to scroll endlessly. This is going to be the fight of my life. Kick porn, kick anxiety and prove I can be the man my wife deserves. I hope to document my journey here.