Just a few days in

I'm just a few days in. Assuming I abstain from PMO, today will be four days clean.

It's a challenge.

I try and find distractions but they aren't coming easy. I work as a tv news reporter and this week has been weird, absolutely nothing is going on in my town and twice I have been sent home early.

Home is where only my demons keep me company. Knowing my escape is always near the desire for PMO only grows. I guess this is what withdraws are like for smokers or other substance users.

All I can think about is the female body; I want to see it.

I know I want to be clean but it's a challenge. I'm a runner and have gone from barely able to run two miles to running 17 so I know I can beat a challenge. But this is different.

I have to see it through.