Greeting, I am a new member here, but not new to the whole NoFap thing. I am a 31 year-old guy. Been married for 10 years. I have a beautiful wife and 4 children. I am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. I was married in the Nauvoo Illinois Temple. I have had on and off success at pornography addiction for almost 20 years. I have been hesitant to join because I, like everyone else, thinks from time to time that they can do it alone. Well I can't. A little background. I caught my dad looking at porn when I was 11 or so. I had been masturbating for a while already without any visual stimulation. Being a nosey kid, I found his stash of videos. Both of them. Not both stashes, both videos. Those two videos carried me out for 2 or 3 years, being always diligent to rewind the video to the original place so I didn't get caught. Then we get satellite TV with cinemax and HBO at 14 or so. Somewhere around there I also got a few people's log-in info for dial-up internet. This is when my grades in school started slipping. I never did bad, but could have done a lot better. So this PMO, regret/shame, PMO/PMO/PMO, re-dedication cycle continued until I was 19. I moved with my brother who is 10 years older than me, to a town several hours from home and we lived in a one bedroom apartment. He had this evil program that would store any images viewed, so with a few clicks he could tell if I had looked at anything. I could do the same for him. We were each other’s accountability partner. He was my first and only one I have ever had except my wife. And having a wife for an accountability partner isn't a good for a relationship. With his help I went from being able to go no more than several days to a week without PMOing, to a month or 2. When I met my wife, I told her everything when we first started dating. I had one small slip, but not MO while dating and she was PISSED. She forgave me though. We were married for over 2 years before I PMOed again. I had almost no urge to look at porn. Then I got fired, my wife got a job, and I was at home with the internet all day. And I did it. I cried like a baby when my wife got home. She thought my dad had died or something. Since that day I have only PMOed 10 times or so. It normally was 2 or 3 times in one day though with long breaks between. My main problem is pornography. I usually get sex 2-4 times a week, and have no drive to masturbate unless I look at porn for a long time. I rarely look at hardcore porn. But I have a very difficult time not allowing myself to look at non-nude stimulation and then leading in to various forms of undress. Normally I stop a few minutes after I see nudity, then feel bad, and feel obligated to tell my wife, and rip her heart to shreds again. It is rare that I go more than a month without looking at a picture of a naked woman. I never have a problem with erections or sex drive, and this might sound like a minor problem to many of you, but this is so discouraging. I feel like this is preventing my spiritual development, and risking my family and career. Sorry for being so long winded. I didn't intend for this to be so long.