Just MOed after 5 months of no PMO. But this was nothing like I expected

I went 89 days PMO free and then I relapsed. That was 23 days ago. So basically I made if for 89 days, relapsed for 1 day, and have been abstaining for 23 days.

Personally, the 3 months of being PMO free was hugely rewarding and to this point, round 2 has been a lot easier than round 1. At a certain point, after you've made such big progress, I almost think it should stop being referred to as a "relapse." If you're re-wired and not letting yourself get obsessed and taken over by PMO, then every once an a while is probably a healthy thing. Maybe it's just MO and no P, maybe that's better? I don't know. But if you've got any type of history with allowing PMO to become a source of negativity, which if you're on this forum, you probably have experienced that, then you've got to be cognizant and keep a close eye on the fact that it's a slippery slope.

My strategy going forward is to just keep building on my successes. I went 89 days, now I'm going for 90. When I hit 90, I'll probably just let my guard down, relapse for a day or two and get back to another 90 days without. It's important to me to remember that the PMO can come back with a vengeance. What keeps me going is the fact that I've made so much progress in other areas of my life since starting the nofap challenge. I have a lot more focus/confidence and less self-doubt without PMO as a part of my daily life. For now, I'm okay with letting my guard down every 90 days or so. These are my thoughts. Good luck with keeping the Weed at bay. That was a hard one for me to kick.

 

You probably don't need this, but just in case, be wary of that shitty chaser effect.

That certainly made me easily fall into the fapping routine after my first streak.

 

Unlikely.

Try sitting on your knees next time you meditate, it will help you concentrate better.

 

Well APCIA, I don't think you will find that busting a nut in your bathtub is a tantric experience.

 

Going 5 months without MO'ing is great! Doing it once after that long shouldn't affect you. As long as you do not make a habit out of it. I remember having periods where I would go that long without MO'ing and when I went back to my hand after so long, it felt weird. My penis didn't like my hand as much anymore. It had become accustom to tight warm moist orifices(as it should).

My initial goal for not MO'ing is set to 30 days, but that's more of an immediate goal. After I reach that, I plan to go much longer.

I don't know if guys who masturbate routinely realize this, but when you masturbate, even if you don't use porn, it still creates a link between sex and your imagination. Even when having real sex, you'll need to imagine scenarios to orgasm - you'll be having sex in your head, not through your senses.