I've been jerking off to porn for as far back as I can remember. I've had pied in every sexual encounter I've ever had. I'm 35 years old, and recently lost the love of my life because I cant keep my dick hard. Knowing all this, I've still never gone much more than a month clean. Just relapsed last night. I feel so fucking broken. If I cant change, I don't want to continue living. This isn't a life. I'm tired of this darkness consuming my life. Has anyone healed their pied after years of failure? Please, someone tell me that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I don't want to live like this no more. Please help.