Just Quit June 2017. Time to be PMO-Free in June, official monthly commitment thread.

In for the rest of June, already have done 5 days! New to the site..waiting for the July challenge to do a full month.

 

Not going to lie this is getting tough...cravings are real jaysus!!

 

Ten more days until the end of June. If you started at the beginning of the month and are still PMO free, I want to say congratulations to you and me!
"Like" this post to let me know that I am not alone. Pretty please .

 

Nothing good comes easy.

When the going gets tough, the tough keep going PMO Free.

 

Came in a little late but I'll be in monk mode

 

That which is sent us at the present moment is the most useful because it is intended especially for us.

It is impossible perfectly to understand anything that experience has not taught us, by suffering or by action.​

- Jean Pierre de Caussade, Abandonment to Divine Providence

 

Always welcome new soldiers to the fight.

Now fight for the reboot.

 

I'm in.. but now, it's like a late month of June. is it Ok?
Well.. 30 days. Please pray for me...

 

Hey guys im still going how is everyone doing. and i have also gone 30 days without masturbating.

However i have peeked a few times at porn. I want to try and stop this. Ive also dedicated myself to stop eating sugar and sweets for a whole month. Just whole foods and water.

 

I should die of thirst rushing like this from one fountain to another, from one stream to another when there is a sea at hand, the waters of which encompass me on every side. All that happens to me therefore will be food for my nourishment, water for my cleansing, fire for my purification, and a channel of grace for all my needs. That which I might endeavour to find in other ways seeks me incessantly and gives itself to me through all creatures.​

- Jean Pierre de Caussade, Abandonment to Divine Providence

My Journal

 

After today, there is one week left in June. We can all do one week, right?

Between where you are now and where you’d like to be there’s a sort of barrier, or a chasm, and sometimes it’s a good idea to imagine that you’re already at the other side of that chasm, so that you can start on the unknown side. ​

- David Bohm, quoted by F. David Peat

My Journal

 

Hi guys iam back after LEAVING for 2 weeks.....what i planned worked and now iam 18 day p* free.iam hoping to make it this june ...AND IAM GONNA

 

Day 24 hard mode, closing in on day 60 of no porn!

I think my marriage may be over, she thinks of it as cheating and has said she won't ever touch me again.

This and the many other hurtful things she's said have been an incredible test of my resolve. I can't control what she is gonna do, but I have forgiven myself, and forgive her for the hurt she's done to me over the years. I hurt her far worse, and will try to earn her love back if i can.

Even if my wife ultimately leaves me, it doesn't mean I can't move past porn.

Honestly I have wasted nearly 30 years in a fog of Pmo and video games. There is NO WAY I'm wasting even one more minute in the fog. Yes celibacy sucks, this reboot is the hardest thing I've evet done, but for the first time I'm facing my problems and it is working, I'm healing slowly.

All of you fighting this same fight with me, stay strong and take the right path!!!

 

I began to be sensible of strange feelings. I felt a melting in me. No more my splintered heart and maddened hand were turned against the wolfish world.
- Herman Melville, Moby Dick

My Journal

 

Congratulations on your courage and perseverance!

 

Sorry to hear that about you and your wife. Glad you're still not giving up though.

 

Day 24 (39 overall). It's definitely getting easier. Especially now the weather has gone cooler here in the UK. Fleas appear to have gone but keep getting phantom itches.

Still enjoying the extra assertiveness from hard move, though not sure some of my colleagues would agree :-D

 

I relate to this a bit. Although my wife and I are very much in love, it hurts that she doesn't understand why I would even want to masturbate so when I told her about my commitment to not masturbating she thinks it's gross. She's otherwise my best friend and so it feels like a betrayal that I can't talk to her about this part of my life--even the fact that I'm trying to be a better person here! PMO was always my "dirty secret" and now the lack of it is too I guess.

Let me know if you need someone to talk to, man. I'm here for you!

 

I just realized that there's only 3 days left for this month of June challenge. I wanted to celebrate this fact, but the reality is that it might as well be 3 years...which is how long it might take for me to change and fully recover.

 

Nearly caught out today. Urge sneaked up on me. Mixture of colleague causing me to fantasize and then wife went to bed early presenting an opportunity. Went for a walk instead and did some vacuuming. Very rock and roll 2 days left in the month!