Just realized how long PMO has really been in my life

I think it has been 10, maybe 11 years. It's sick to even think about. It didn't start with P at least, but it was something I wish I knew not to do. Thankfully I decided to do something about it in November 2013, and I've had at least 150 days completely PMO free non consecutively since then. Falling off of the horse big time this week, I've just had some deep thought of what really got me wanting to quit, and how it could have affected my life in ways I've never thought.

My laziness in school and loss of focus working on long term projects for things that I love... Could this be a result of years of PMO? I feel a great despair thinking about this, but it helps so much to know that I'm not alone, and at least what I've done wrong is so common that I'd think I can't really be much worse than some of the people growing up around me who don't even know how bad PMO is for them. At least, these are two comforting thoughts that help me feel like my life hasn't been turned so badly to the negative because of PMO.

Whether it has or not, here's to the rest of August being PMO free. This is at the very least, a great motivation going into college. F*ck PMO and f*ck being a walking sack of shit, screw this addiction and myself for keeping me from being the man I'm supposed to be! May God give me strength going back in this, because I'm REALLY sick of this and myself.


I just needed to vent and share my thoughts. I sincerely wish that everyone here has not been caught up in pmo as long as I have, but if you have then I hope we can all do this together. I've made it very far before, I can do it again. So can you. A couple last random thoughts that came to my head, as I close this rant: Those images are temporary, the joy of living lasts as long as you make it. and... "JUST DO IT!"- Shia Labeouf