Just really realized how addicted I am

It was a side thought of mine for the last year but I really never thought about how porn addiction affects me.
I am gay, in my early twenties, I fap probably 2-5 times a day since I am very young, maybe 13..
Everytime a person told me they jerk off once twice a week it sounded like a lie to me. I never actually realized how not normal it is, I rather believed people are lying than just understand I am not OK..
At age 16-18 I constantly used these random Webcam sites where u can masturbate with random people, I watched so much gay porn, I exchanged so many photos with ppl, been so irresponsible just for that orgasm feeling..
I feel like this porn addiction takes another level on dating apps like grindr, sometimes I find myself wanking and talking with people there about the stuff we are going to do when we meet, finishing, and closing the app. Like a porn site. Never meeting these guys.
I find it kind of logical, that maybe I am so moody, so closed to everyone, and can't find a relationship because my brains standart for orgasm is so low (watching porn) and it doesn't find a reason to do better than that, that maybe sometimes when I am so angry and moody it's because I am addicted to porn and when I don't have it something happens inside.
Also, lately, when I have sex I have ED.. And I read that maybe porn addiction is the reason, it makes sense.
(also been sexually harassed and it feels connected to this... So im not sure which of them causes the ED)

I never shared this with anyone, and I know that in order to overcome this I need support, but I don't think any of my friends would be there to accept how weird I am and be there for me to help me fix this super awkward problem.

 

Moreover I am moving tomorrow out of my home with my family (mom siblings and etc) to live alone, I don't think I could do the hard mode reboot as I would want to have sex with partners while finally having the space to do so...

What do you think should I try??