just sharing a few goals for the next 30 day

so ive come to the realization that I can no longer
live my life looking short term I just turned 29 and moving forward I have set a few small goals that will add up to bigger ones.

1. in the next 30 days no PMO, keeping myself busy and going to bed at the same time every day will help me stay focused. another way to make this happen. when im home alone no smoking (i find when I smoke my will power is depleted ) end date October 11th 2019

2. read 10 pages a day for the next 30 days. my goal is to finish my book before October 11th. ( ive already started this so im sure im well on my way)

3. control my social media usage. I have set up a schedule for my social media usage. I can only use it during my breakes at work then from 12:45 to 5 pm i will be disconnected. from 5 pm to 8 I can engage in networking posting and answering messages. this will also be for the next 30days.

 

Day 5 today feeling great.
On my way to my 90 day goal.
But crazy story
So today a recent fling hit me up today and asked if we could hook up.
At that moment a burst of dopamine hit me I was excited.
But I took not of this chemical response. A part of me knew I could go and get it in.
But then I thought about what I would feel after in the long run it would be worth it at all.
But they way my brain responded is a huge reminder why I need this reboot and life change. For my GF my kid and younger brothers I can go back.
Only thinking long term and practice not being so damn selfish

 

CONGRATS on jumping that hurdle. That's an testament to your will power and the sign of a strong man. Nice going!

 

thanks my friend. and sorry for all the spelling errors. not my strong point lol . but clearly you got my point. it was a decision i had to make the right one.

 

Day 6

Today started a whole new bag of emotions. I really can't believe I haven't gotten myself together finichial at 29.
This is one of the reason why I used P.
On the plus side. I still am in a great position that with some minor changes and a solid game plan I can turn all that around in a little as 6 to 8 months.
Now that I'm thinking more long term with my goals I see not that numbers dont lie and planning and thinking ahead is the key.
I use to live my life not thinking really of the furtur. But always knowing I was gonna be stable.

Im always chasing stability in my life more so with money and income then anything else l. It's a huge drawback in my life. But like I said ik really not THAT deep in debt and I do have a good paying job above minimum wage in canada with benifits, I always have a side business that I'm building it's not making me crazy money yet but everytime I get a sale I feel that's amazing confidence boost.

Cant tell you how much porn has affected my focus on my family , my loved ones , my job and my business.
I know ik only 6 days in but I've done lagers steaks before and it's always really depressing in the beginning simple because you have to now face what you been running.

A part of me really feel this is like my last REAl try and keeping away from PMO and not going back. I understand not I just got to change my perspectiv on it

 

Day 7.

Today u was thinking how much your energy and body can change just by staying away from PMO.
It's actually almost crazy to think.
I remember a few months back I went 60 + days and my mind was rebooting and even though I did relapse BIG time after this couldn't do

 

Day 8.
Today I was crying at working thinking of all the time amd energy I wasted on the foolish addiction.
Thinking of my family My beGF who just wants to be my wife and our beautiful daughter.
I know I can change everything but I got to start small. Spending time with them today