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just started to save my LIFE :)

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by shanky kumar, Jan 28, 2016.

  1. shanky kumar

    shanky kumar Fapstronaut

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    DAY12- Exams ahead , my 11th class final exam .i had pledged to stop killing my time by p and M.i was a fool i wasted my time . NOW after 11 days of noPMO i feel a special king of energy in me . no sleepy ,no procastination. I will work hard for IIT , i will do it . in 11th i wasted my most of the time on watching porn , as in 10th i got 10 cgpa luckily so overconfidence led me ending up with masturbation. I masturbated about 100+ times in an year . feeling shameful and sorry for my mistake tooo. gonna be spiritual tooo, I when start cycling every evening , i go to temple , asks god to forgive me and give me the power to defy these bad forces that pull me in. NO NO NO I WILL NEVER M AGAIN AND WILL NOT WATCH PORN AGAIN. :)
     
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  2. shanky kumar

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    day 13- chemistry exams ahead, I am feeling supernatural powers within me coz i am a FAPSTRONAUT, yepii i will make it to 90 days and even more easily , iwill not masturbate again any more
     
  3. shanky kumar

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    i relapsed , after 14 days , but ok a winner never gets fear of defeat, I will break this addiction .
     
  4. shanky kumar

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    day 2 - will not do anymore, there's a feeling in mind to do , but my aim is very high then why to live a common life , lets get out of this hell
     
  5. shanky kumar

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    Well I relapsed yesterday again . from now I will write my journal at the end of the day , yesterday I wrote my journal and fapped , that was something i must b ashamed off.:(
     
  6. shanky kumar

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    DAY1- not at all gonna do , yesterday I was bored and edged and switched to auto pilot mode , this was bad , I have a huge AIM which needs too much haard work and dedication, I can push this challenge to year 1 from now , I can do this , helllyeaaaah ;)
     
  7. shanky kumar

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    again broke today, masturbated 2 times a tday.I PLEDGE TO NOT MASTURBATE ANYMORE FROM NOW > I Have to clear my iit exam , I dont want this kind of life . I am fed up of it . I wanna get best in academics.tomorrow will be my fist day guys I will surely do my best to save my energy and guys actually its my exam season and instead of studying i am fapping , disgusting , I AM QUITTING THIS HABIT
     
  8. shanky kumar

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    DAY1- slept today till 12 noon , feeling too much tired maths exam ahead :)
     
  9. shanky kumar

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    relapsed , i couldnt control it
     
  10. programer

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    hi there @shanky kumar, Don't give up. I relapsed after 296 Days due to the things that were going on In my life & Lack of motivation. I am back agai. I fought like a warior but I relapsed, I will now fight like a beast till I Win.

    Let us do off with this stinking Demon of Pmo. Keep going on.
     
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  11. shanky kumar

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    its definately an addiction cant moveeven 1 day before it , it pulling me like hell, am attracted toward it, god pls help me
     
  12. shanky kumar

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    DAY 1 - i will win over this habit , i have to do it any how , my 11th class was ruined by it and now i dont want to ruin my 12th class
     
  13. shanky kumar

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    day 2 - my exams over its my enjoy day , hanged out with friends and now knew the real essence of being social. I HAD LAUNCHED MY NoFap ROCKET . :)
     
  14. sunshine421

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    Double meaning in
    ? :p


    May I share this thread with you? You are so active in maintaining your diary. I am trying to have a good journal for my reboot.

    BTW, you are trying to get into IIT? I am trying to get out of it (with the degree :p). I really have to study hard man. It's one thing getting in, and it's another thing competing with the top 100 of India. :/
     
  15. shanky kumar

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    Yeah sure u can share this thread, I again fapped, I don't know what is happening , after 3 days only I fapped again . Huh , need to do something strange to leave it . from now I'll be writing daily in detail and will flash back also , whatever written .
     
  16. sunshine421

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    That's the Chaser effect. Read more about it here: http://yourbrainonporn.com/what-chaser.

    Actually, why did you fap? Was it an urge in the body, or in the mind?


    Today was a day without PMO. It's the 6th day on my NoFap hard reboot. It was a easier than other days. Even if PMO thoughts came, I didn't seem interested in it. :)
     
  17. shanky kumar

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    DAY 1 - got up at 6 , studied inorganic and now typing this , i am damn sure its not gonna happen again, i will review my journal when urges comes.
     
  18. shanky kumar

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    i am happy that, I steched it to day now its time for monk mode :), but theres something thats pulling me , i can feel , well thats my mind , i must have control on it
     
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  19. sunshine421

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    Day 7:
    No urges today. Getting back on track.
    Just feeling a bit lost and sad.

    Also, I noticed that my previous streaks usually last about 10 days. Must be more careful now. :/
     
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  20. shanky kumar

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    day 2nd - busy in studying but edged for 10 mins but again stopped , its chasing me , I also wrote a journal inm y journal.
    Fapping has toooooooo many side effects then also we tend to do it , whats the thing that pulls us in, I think thats pleasure, but is the pleasure worth it? NO , its not . Jacking off seeing computer is not manly, lets overcomet his creepy thing and I will not even edge from now onwards actually after solving fer hc verma questions I felt bored and my dopamine pushed me into the well on PMO but NoFap took me out , :)
     
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