Justin: My Story

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by tordlulu, Jan 2, 2019.

  1. tordlulu

    tordlulu New Fapstronaut

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    Hi, Justin here. I live London. I am addicted to sex. Justin the sex addict. I guess it does have a ring to it.

    So I have wasted so much time on porn and Grindr. I have become very depressed and cynical. I am seeing a therapist but it is not working. I know porn and casual sex are the root of my problems.

    I get turned on when a guy is being very verbally abusive, but I always feel disgusted at the same time. I don't want to blame porn for all my problems but I think it has had a huge influence on my sexuality and I start to enjoy being verbally abused during sex. Sex has become a form of escape for me and I watch porn and have sex with insensitive, rude and abusive men whenever I feel horrible about myself. And after sex I often cry in bed and feel even worse about myself and start to have suicidal thoughts.

    I am fairly sex-positive. I mean I am a flaming homosexual so of course I like hose monsters and having sex with men. But porn isn't about sex anymore. Nowadays, porn is more about power and degradation. It sexualises abuse and humiliation, and it makes it extremely difficult to have a healthy incorporation of carnality in the context of everyday life. So it's time to stop. My new year's resolution I guess.

    So here is what I am gonna do:

    -> I hereby solemnly swear that I, Justin xxxx, will stop watching pornography and masturbating completely.

    -> Stop having casual sex with those scab-eating bug-eyed bags of subcutaneous fat from loserville on Grindr who couldn't care less about my feelings.

    -> I can still have sex, but I have to be more selective and do it with the right people. I am sorry but I am not sexless and frigid like Thatcher.

    -> Stop mistaking abusiveness and aggression for confidence and masculinity.

    -> Be friends with guys who won't think about oral sex every time I open my mouth. I need some positive male figures in my life. Boy trying to think of one nice guy and I am blanking.

    Sorry if this post is a bit long. I have been really honest about my feelings here and it is actually very scary. I know many people will make fun of me but they are free to suck a hot one. I am here because I know something is wrong and I need to change. And I do need some emotional support since I don't have any friends and anyone in my life that I can talk to. Sometimes loneliness drives me insane.

    Thanks for reading.
     
    Last edited: Jan 2, 2019
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  2. Hi Justin, welcome to NoFap!

    The best way to reach your goals is with 90 days NoPMO. NINETY days no porn, no masturbation and no orgasm. Sounds easy, but it is not.
    I did it four weeks on the first try, and it was worth it. Even if you have a Relapse, the "superpowers" you have accumulated remain. You start again on a higher level and work your way up!

    I am sure, with NoPMO you will reach all points on your list, you will start an awesome life and you will find love!

    I wish you as much willpower as possible (because you will need all of it),

    Peter
     
  3. Hey, Justin here in USA. I understand where you are at. How can I encourage you?
     
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  4. tordlulu

    tordlulu New Fapstronaut

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    Dunno. I am new to this. But feel free to message me and maybe we can support each other.
     
  5. Latinmixedboy

    Latinmixedboy Fapstronaut

    Hi bro! I been doing one day at the time ...I hit rock bottom as well with porn and sex ,I’m now in a 5 months no sex streak cuz wanted to clean and retire myself from everything I was doing (my journal ya a little bit about my story ) now I’m almost in the 21 days of Nofap ,I have noticed a really good benefits already and trust me ,this is really worth it ;)
     
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  6. tordlulu

    tordlulu New Fapstronaut

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    Thanks. I will definitely follow your journal.
     
  7. PM your story and I will be pm mine.
     
  8. Coolyorky

    Coolyorky Fapstronaut

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    Fridgid lime thatcher Hahahaha that tickled me bro
     
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  9. jwitcher

    jwitcher Fapstronaut

    Hey bud! Welcome to the forums :)
    You'll be able to crush the PMO habit and maybe you'll find a good partner with whom you'll be happy and healthy in your life.
    Good luck!
     

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