Keep getting so close to relapsing

Get a porn blocker (K9 is the best and it's free) It wont stop you from relapsing but It'll help keep you off of porn sites

 

Just restart. Make a commitment to never do it again. You'll get better. Whenever I'm in a situation like that I get up, get some water and evaluate the situation I was in and try to avoid it in the future. Even doing homework in another part of your hoe can help take your mind off of P and refresh your brain. Don't give up, I'm on day 10 and it's been a hell of a ride. You're not alone, we all make mistakes, just don't let this destroy you. I plan on going for 120 days and have never been so excited for a flatline, in my head, once I get to the flatline, it's easy riding from there.

 

LGR44,

The frustration and anger you feel is coming through very clearly in your posts. I can also see a lot of energy and motivation to make a positive change in your life and break free of the hold PMO has on you. I think it's good that you are growing more aware of the negatives it brings to your life, and also your behavior patterns which lead to relapse.

Just want to give you some encouragement. I understand personally how easy it is to be agitated at ourselves when we try to do something and fail, especially abstaining from PMO. I've found though that a component of successful recovery is learning to accept your weakness and having a positive outlook even in times of temporary setbacks. If we generate so much anger at ourselves from a failure; we are really just fueling the cycle. Your inner self will be feeling bad and you will feel increased pressure to turn to ingrained outlets like PMO to escape from those feelings.

It's good that you have a lot of energy but I would advise you to stay positive and learn how to channel it in a productive direction. If you focus on anger at yourself or hatred for P stars and temptations, I fear you will just be increasing the strength of your urges. The addiction works in a counter-intuitive way. It's a bumpy road to lasting recovery and you might not be able to do it right away. Keep up the good work and keep learning from your mistakes. I think you're on the right track. The rest of us are here for you.

 

I just messed up myself after 7 days and I'm really depressed, but I finally snapped myself out of feeling sorry for myself and it's time to get back in it to win it, can't quit, we have a life to fight for

 

We have all relapsed and tried again... I have twice been past day 180 and twice relapsed at times for following weeks on end. It depends on emotional health. If your emotional state is bad, you are likely to relapse. To get into this reboot consider - your friendships, are they positive? Your home environment - is it nice can you improve it? - your routine and time use. I am at day 23. I started a meditation class five weeks ago. I think that led me to some inner realisation that I can reboot. Try it. Try a fixed daily routine, up at the same time, good food, keep hydrated, exercise say 3 x a week, try something new like swimming, bed at a reasonable time, not much TV, enough sleep. Develop new clean habits, that is what I am trying to do and it is helping me, maybe you too.

 

Thanks for the good advice, I've tried to put myself on a good routine, it seems to work, I definitely feel better getting up in the morning and going through a list of things to do and feeling like I accomplished something instead of staying home and PMO

 

Good man. Keep at it. Ten mins at a time.....I liken it waking from a coma. Your body is going to take time to adjust, it will take time to normalise. P use is just not normal I finally accept after all these years.

 

Look at it this way buddy...out of the last 10 days, you've only pmo'd ONCE! Just don't let it become a binge.

 

Fellas, just keep trying - we've all been there. Channel your anger into energy for the fight, against PMO. Use blockers, block pathways to your last resets, walk out when you get ready to reset and know that all of us here care that you succeed. Let's do this together - safety in numbers. If you peek -you will fail. Just lost a 53 day streak to it. Be on guard and make it difficult for you to reset by making a plan. Let's do this!

 

I would

I would advice you to quit beating yourself up and restart..It might seem diffucult for now but I assure you that you will appreciate it after a day or so..I need you to recognise your effort.10 days,that is a big thing..I need you to make a commitment of not searching photos of your favourite P.Star or a particular website...You will be okay..The Journey isnt as smooth,but it is worth it..Be Strong Man

 

YES it's so hard for me because I am so used to doing it at times like right before school. A tip I offer is if you ever had a moment of ED with a female remember that moment and ask yourself if you want it to happen again

 

@mwansy Very good point sir! Stay strong everybody!

 

A flatline is the best thing to happen to a PMO addict.

 

Well said.

 

What is flatline?

 

It's when your penis just hangs there like an ornament. No morning wood, no arousal response at ANYTHING. It's a safe place from PMO where the sexual system is in recovery mode and has you locked out, even from override (trying to force it to engage).

 

Don't look at porn. Porn leads to jacking off. Your teasing and tempting yourself looking at provocative photos that arouse you and make things far more difficult. Don't think about sex, porn, porn stars, or anything that makes you horny and it will be much easier. When you get some temptation stuck in your head [ because you won't let it go] it makes it so much more of a struggle.