1. Welcome to NoFap! We have disabled new forum accounts from being registered for the time being. In the meantime, you can join our weekly accountability groups.
    Dismiss Notice

Keep relapsing to transwomen?

Discussion in 'Compulsive Sexual Behavior' started by Wave tamer, Feb 7, 2021.

  1. Wave tamer

    Wave tamer Fapstronaut

    770
    671
    93
    I’m not really viewing porn much as blockers on my devices are keeping me safe..ish. But last night I got a second SIM card and was able to ring a sex line. This opened up the doors for domination and kinky stuff. I then went on YouTube to try and find something seductive and naughty it was all pretty tame and crap. But then led me to go through my phone and find a way of getting a ts escorts number. The sex was ok and I’m not going to live in shame for weeks. But it’s about time I learnt these things escalate.
     
    {Ananta} likes this.
  2. Uncle_Iroh

    Uncle_Iroh Fapstronaut

    243
    324
    63
    When you put up walls to your addiction it will find new ways to act out, if you block on bit of porn you will find tamer stuff somewhere, or you will do as you did and escalate further, maybe more than ever. Just be aware of when you want to act out, don't allow it to escalate, but if you act out then move forward and get on with it, what is done is done.
     
    {Ananta}, Keebs0113, ELITE2BE and 2 others like this.
  3. PanteriMauzer

    PanteriMauzer Fapstronaut

    626
    962
    93
    Remember they are dudes, not woman , all of that is plastic , their man ! Thst will help you not relapsing to that shit
     
  4. Wave tamer

    Wave tamer Fapstronaut

    770
    671
    93
    Urrr I know dude fucking disgusting. I went for another this morning knowing I still had access to the site. I had to leave as it was really weird and not like the pictures. Then got another later on this afternoon; same thing although it was one that had got a lot of work done. As soon as I seen the bloke in there had to stop. At least I’m seeing it for what it is now.
     
    Last edited: Feb 22, 2021
    {Ananta} and Addictedaddict like this.
  5. Wave tamer

    Wave tamer Fapstronaut

    770
    671
    93
    The loneliness got the better of me this weekend. But life in general is going alright so not going to stress too much. Just a bit skint now
     
    Addictedaddict likes this.
  6. Wave tamer

    Wave tamer Fapstronaut

    770
    671
    93
    For anyone reading please don’t act out these fantasies, I feel suicidal after all that. I’m so sick of loosing to it.
     
  7. Upwards2020

    Upwards2020 Fapstronaut

    322
    358
    63
    The problem is we've watched a lot of porn ... have high sex drive and have little or no outlet.... escalation is forcing an outlet for repressed sexual energy . Doesn't mean your into dudes . It means you have no outlet and transwomen are a kink that look almost identical to some women.

    It's a bad combo.

    You don't want to go down that rabbit hole.. it doesn't lead anywhere because it's not real ... come back to reality and try and find a healthier outlet that doesn't cause confusion ...

    It's fucked.

    I've watch regular porn for years loved every minute escalated to all.the standard genres then started watching cam girls. Watched that for years . Then eventually porn started getting boring because its not real and if you have got paid in a while you can sort of lose place of reference and if your fapping all.the time you can become.desensitized

    Then i came across t porn i can only watch the ones that literally look like a girl.... scientists say it's a Gray area . But it's not gay. It's nothing to do.with genitals .. There's a women's face if it's a guys face attached it doesn't turn you in ... It's just an alteration to women except different.they have high sex drive and something in the minds of men can click..but there is a dude underneath all that surgery and makeup. What do you want in life ...if you want to stop.ypu have to accept that you will never watch it again and that you will have to move forward as if it didn't exist ... so no outlet and porn become boring . That's how escalation works ..trannys are basically an easy twisted outlet for.guys with repressed sexual.energy and probably depression . Niggas gotta bust that nut ... It's a cunt

    Im gay i know that for sure but I think something needs to unravel or this is just it.im.attracted to women but I'm a porn addict and porn has diluted my sexuality and arousal and twisted it to something new to.the brain when I stop my brain starts to come around.but I know I.still get turned on by ts porn when I escalate so it's something I will have to.decide upon because it's not like I'm going to get with a transgendered person no way in he'll and I'm definitely not gay I'm not into dick and definitely not.dudes so it's all pretty warped but if I continue on this path it's literally only going to go one way fapping to ts porn ... so what's the point.. that's no life ...that can't be my sexuality fapping to transgender... It's fucked up.. I'm not even bi because I'm not into any type of dude but I am sexually.attracted to women there's just a bizzare mix .... It sucks .. but it's repressed sexual energy and too much porn .... if you weren't watching so much porn and then having sex with your girlfriend.on a regular basis I'm pretty sure it wouldn't be the problem that it is
     
    Keebs0113, ankith and Addictedaddict like this.
  8. Wave tamer

    Wave tamer Fapstronaut

    770
    671
    93
    Yea some good points. I’ve been visiting escorts for years to nurse my mental health and to keep me off drugs and drink mainly at the weekend as a treat. I thought I could just stop whenever I wanted to but it got really out of control. I’ve read that in bipolar the sufferer has states called hyper sexuality. If I’m stressed I would use porn or escorts to try and counteract the cortisol (stress hormone) with opioids ( produced when we orgasm) Also with bipolar and scitzoprenia there is an Imbalance of dopamine, which might be linked to trying to balance it out.
    It’s very complicated and there is a lot of factors I’m working through which is really quite liberating. The TS porn/escorts seems to have come from escalation like yourself. You’re very right I do have a massive sexual appetite which hasn’t been satisfied with a healthy relationship/ships.
    There for Ive tried to find connection in sex, but because the need is still not met the sex has spiralled out of control into areas that shock and cause me pain. Eckhart Tolle quote; Addiction starts with pain and ends with pain..The intense rush from the forbidden followed by a massive crash and feelings of worthlessness do feel very like a drug come down ( but worse)
    There are also factors of wanting to escape and give up control for a bit to get away from my mind and stressful job. Plus we can have deep feelings of shame and loathing for ourselves and can act out these subconscious feelings in a way of punishing ourselves to make these thoughts true. Coming on this forum along with a great therapist. I have managed to start dealing with all this crap and I can actually feel there is a way out of weird perversion. Thank you :)
     
  9. TheForsakeen

    TheForsakeen Fapstronaut

    375
    240
    63
    ??
    Anyways you guys have a problem with porn don't take it out on trans, if i have offended anyone good.
     
    CarP and Peaceful magic 21 like this.
  10. Wave tamer

    Wave tamer Fapstronaut

    770
    671
    93
    Trans can suck my ....
     
  11. Wave tamer

    Wave tamer Fapstronaut

    770
    671
    93
    Went and visited another trans person last night and decided it was really a fat, gay lad in a wig with his Willy tucked between his legs so l left!
     
    {Ananta} likes this.
  12. Upwards2020

    Upwards2020 Fapstronaut

    322
    358
    63
    Sound the same except I haven't gone as far as escorts .. yet.. I have adhd which also can produce hypersexual I basically use it to deal with stress ... So even watching porn causes stress because trying to NoFap and end up relapsing again after the first time to balance out the cortisol . The best way is to avoid it entirely and it does get easier but there's some emotional shit there and the hypersexuality something needs to balance out somewhere because simply abstaining just doesn't seem to be enough
     
  13. Upwards2020

    Upwards2020 Fapstronaut

    322
    358
    63
    The first one must have been an auto correct I can guarantee I meant to say I'm not gay I know for sure ... I'm attracted to women but trans porn can turn me on I'm not gay or bi because I'm not attracted to any male of any type .. I know they say we are all on a spectrum but I'm not attracted to any male only women there's a bizzare mix of women and trans porn .... pretty sure I'm just escalated as fuck ... being watching this type of porn for about a year now I've been thinking about it all in great depth there is no hidden repressed sexuality I'm not gay or even bi .... the bizzare mix is trans porn .... I just need to stay away from porn it's just goina fuck up your sex drive or make you impotent at some point I'm open minded as in when I'm bored I'm open to the idea that I have escalated and watch ts porn . But never in the real world I would never actually act as the simple fact I even watch it is because I've watched so much porn and escalation is a real thing that's what porn does just keep using and abusing it's not my sexuality and long enough away from porn I can guarantee I could give two fucks about trans . I first saw trans porn 10 years ago watched it for about a week thought wtf is this shit ..stopped and didn't watch I it again for 10 years .. it's just boredom escalation and lack of healthy sexual outlet . When your busting nuts 3 times a day on a daily basis your goina get bored at some point .. it's a terrible affliction
     
    Last edited: Feb 16, 2021
  14. Wave tamer

    Wave tamer Fapstronaut

    770
    671
    93
    One text me earlier, a real high class one asking if I was horny, I said can she delete my number as I’m suffering from addiction and she was making it difficult.. and she sent “ Do you want some free naughty movie clips?”
    I managed to say No lol and told her she was a c..t xx
     
  15. Wave tamer

    Wave tamer Fapstronaut

    770
    671
    93
    Did it again fuck sake....
     
  16. Why are you so horny for a dude in women clothing? Stop yourself fam. You're really bringing the end to yourself.
     
  17. Wave tamer

    Wave tamer Fapstronaut

    770
    671
    93
    Haha I know it’s kind of horrible when you look at it like that, this one was hotter than most chicks but still a guy under it all. I’m just going through a lot and that’s a massive escape and I’m hooked on naughty sex. I can just surrender control and get away from how painful life can be for half hour. I think there’s a lot to it psychologically. I could do with a decent Mrs for the company support and sex life though.
     
  18. Well, I mean you should go for real women, fam. That transwoman shit is fake as hell. Take care.
     
  19. Wave tamer

    Wave tamer Fapstronaut

    770
    671
    93
    Just messaged my accountability partner a minute ago, talking about going hard mode for a bit and using that sexual energy to chase some pussy on a dating site:) Yea it’s a disgusting world that transwoman shit dude cheers
     
    Addictedaddict likes this.
  20. Upwards2020

    Upwards2020 Fapstronaut

    322
    358
    63
    Was going to write a post about this

    But this

    Straight-identifying men’s attraction to trans women is actually a result of an instinctual sexual response that can be traced back to the mating process. Simply put, the sight of a penis during sex engenders a heightened sense of competition, wherein the most virile mate will beat out his competitors to successfully impregnate a female and propagate his bloodline.

    Thus, seeing a penis during sex with a woman raises male arousal levels in an attempt to counter the threat of sexual inefficacy. Your attraction to trans woman doesn’t necessarily determine anything about your sexuality, since trans women are not men.

    Further proof: researchers found that the ejaculate produced during a threesome with another male and a female partner carried a higher sperm count than that produced during a threesome with two female partners. This once again ties into the above mentioned enhancement of the male libido in the presence of a perceived threat to one’s biological supremacy.
     
    Peaceful magic 21 likes this.

Share This Page