KILL PORN, KILL MASTURBATION. REBIRTH OF MY SOUL

ANewLeaf

ANewLeaf

Fapstronaut
I'm a 24-year-old male. Porn led me to masturbation and I have been battling both for over 10 years now.

I only found out about the NOFAP yesterday and I've started my journey immediately. Even as I type I feel a weakness in me, I hear my subconscious with screams of a doubt. But if I've learned anything from the hundreds of posts and threads is that I need to be busy. I've decided to get busy outdoors, play video games with friends at their place, run every morning and evening (before and work).

Some time ago I got so depressed and dirty I tried getting drugs that will kill Mr junior temporarily. I did result in drug abuse a few times but I'm way past that now. I currently do not have a girlfriend and I don't know if getting one now will ruin or increase my chances of coming out successfully on this journey.

I need as much help as I can get, and I know I'll find it here cause if we all light up we could scare away the dark.

Day 1 of my journey. Wish me well my friends.
 
Day 2 completed.

Super psyched. I didnt want to take chances so immediately I woke up rushed to take a cold shower. Dressed up while playing loud annoying music(something I hate). I didn't want to give my mind a chance to feel comfortable. After work went straight to a friends to play some video games and tennis.
I'm trying to keep super busy and never alone. I'm also controlling my eyes, i don't stare for more than a second.
I hope and pray I get to day 5. I decided to set shorter and more attainable goals. Instead of going to be like the 90 or 200day Nofaps I set 2,5,7,12,19....

Any thing else you guys think I should work on??? Wish me well guys.
 
Welcome to the community friend! Enough of suffering from this silent private addiction. Now you are not alone.

You got this community to back you in this fight and as people facing similar life situations, we can relate to each other.

Its good to see you've made 3 days clean. Here are some strategies which worked for me that I'd like to share with you.


IMO, the first thing is to make a specific list of WHY you want to quit. Write it down, keep it near, and refer to it often.

There are tons of strategies guys have found helpful in their fight for freedom. These are some that work for me:

1. No cell phone or computer in your bedroom or bathroom. Also, use effective blockers. As for passwords: I read one guy drew 10 random playing cards from a deck and used those to type in, such as-- 17QA693K2J. Then just fold the cards back into the deck and shuffle. You have to out-fox yourself.
2. Don't be the last one up at night.
3. If you're alone in the house, go for a walk or run, call a friend, pray, cook something, vacuum, or whatever. Do not remain idle.
4. Cold showers! They reduce lust and clear your mind.
5. Exercise daily, make yourself sweat! Your body and urges have had their own way far too long. Time to show them who's the boss!
6. You can't help seeing a cute girl, but you can hold back from taking a second look or fantasizing.
7. If you're not ejaculating, wet dreams may increase. No sweat. They do NOT break your streak. Their your body's way of relieving build-up. Just don't fantasize about them the next morning.
8. This is one tough battle, buddy. Stay strong, determined, and vigilant. Be patient with yourself.


You can win this man! I'm rooting for you! Cheers!!!
 
Welcome abroad the boat of recovery. It's time to recover the bright light in your eyes and the playfulness of your childhood.

What helped me immensely was to share my wisdom and experiences with the kindred souls of this journey.
 
Day 7. This is totally unbelievable. I never knew i could go this far on my 1st try. I'm the happiest man alive today. Just last night i woke up in the middle of the night and continued a book i was reading as part of my recovery strategy and i was amazed at my self. I had so much energy and life flowing through my veins. Usually such nights end up with PMO.
The Eyes is actually the lamp of the entire body. Keeping my eyes off half nude girls has really helped.
Whenever i remember that a relapse will mean my refreshing my tracker has helped a lot too. It feels like the few days I've gotten will become an absolute waste of time and people reading this thread will be disappointed.

But i still get urges very frequently but it has become easier fighting it off.
I also opened up to a friend who always checks on me whenever i'm bathing or going no2. We crack jokes about it and he keeps reminding me i can do it and what benefits await me.

And i also still feel depressed whenever I'm fighting an urge. It's a horrible feeling for me.
I wish you all the best of luck on your journey.
 
LIVE! Another strong urge while in the office alone. Logged in to report. Can't think of anything else to do. Started playing Jon Bellion 'The Human Condition' album (Very loud.lol). Willing to do anything to get this feeling off me. I'm going to keep writing here until I've got myself back again. Stepped out a couple of times but whenever i get back, the urges are triggered again.
 
Wow! 10Days. I've really improved and thanks to Nofap. Let's keep trying to be successful. I'm just scrambling for things to do.
LIVE! Currently wall punching. LOl, anything to get this off my mind.
 
Seeing my tracker read 10 Days is like a miracle. I can't lose after i've come this far. 10 days, 240 hours, 14,400 minutes, 864,000 seconds PMO free. Wow, I've done a lot. Come so far and can't give up now.
On my fibonacci sequence i have less than 30 hours to get to my next goal of 12 days PMO free.
Can't give in now. I'll be letting a lot of people down. A lot of people read my journal and are encouraged, i won't let them down.
 
Anyone seeing me now will think i'm crazy. Fully dressed with a suit and doing push ups and sit ups under his office table. LMOA.
Will do anything to get my mind off this disgusting PMO. A lot of people are forced into P and watching them is encouraging and promoting them. Imagine if twas my sister that was illegally and unjustly forced into it will i still enjoy it??
If i watch it i'm dirty and disgusting.
 
I'm feeling better now. I think i can get back to work now. Thanks to Nofap. Another day Conquered.
Remeber to take it One Urge At A Time.
I believe I've conquered today and stronger than ever. MOVING ON! lol.
 
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