Ladder to Heaven

First of all I would just like to say this is just a little idea I had for a post, so here goes. (Bear with me here with all of the metaphors and symbols, it's the best I could do)

When we fight our addiction and strive to be better, we are working to get to a better place, leaving the place of addiction, for the sake of understanding, we'll call that the underworld right now. Some people like to think of a sort of "stairway to heaven" out of the underworld and to a PMO free life. Although the mechanism to get out of the underworld is similar, it is not a stairway. It is a ladder.

It is a "ladder to heaven". I say this as a metaphor, obviously. With a staircase, when you relapse, you take a step or two back, but you are still relatively in the same place you were before relapsing. This is not true, at least of PMO though. When we relapse, we go back to our "underworld". Although it might not be as bad of an underworld as it was before our attempt at being PMO free, it is still a horrible place, and we want to get out again. This is where the ladder part comes in.

When we relapse, we do not take a step back, or even two. We let go of the rungs of the ladder and free fall back to the underworld. If we desire to be back where we used to be, we have to start at the first rung, and work our way up, all the while having the capability of just letting go and falling back again.

It never gets harder to let go of the rungs. When we are five rungs up, physically speaking, it is easy to let go. It is just as physically easy to let go when we are five rungs up, or say, five-thousand. However, when we are higher up, we feel we have put something behind us, and it is mentally harder to let go, but you get the point, we are just as fragile in relapsing whether we are at the beginning or the end of a reboot.

When you are on the ladder- don't look back, for that is the first step to letting go, and relapsing. Keep looking up at heaven, even if you are at the bottom of the ladder, and even if there seems to be a million miles between you and heaven.

Thanks for reading and keep climbing the ladder fellow Fapstronauts!

 

Yeah I totally agree with what you're saying.