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I feel your desperation. Try fasting, like a 24h hour water fasting with praying, it really helps to clean and get stronger and in my case was the strongest weapon against Urges.! God bless

 

36 days.
That's 3 dozen.
That's 5 plus weeks.
That's 5 days longer than a month.
That's over 100 days shy of my longest streak.
That's about 40 years short of my goal.
Happy Halloween everyone.

 

1st day done, hoping to have a PMO free November

 

No worries about November my friend. Not asking you to take care of November all at once. Just ask yourself to take care of today and tomorrow take care of tomorrow. One day at a time, sometimes one hour at a tim, sometimes one second at a time.

 

Day 87 checkin

 

Man, thank you all so much. I’m seriously so grateful. Today is technically day 1? I think. I’m so foggy I can’t really tell. I’m going to consider this day a good wrap though, and call it a zero. Tomorrow will definitely be a one.

Funnily enough, I can really see that the number doesn’t matter right now. I don’t want to watch porn right now or even masturbate and I’m grateful for that... When I consider where I was last year compared to today I’m very happy and hopeful about my life. It’s not the STRONGEST feeling, but I think that that is because of the potential hypofrontality issue...

All I know is that the feeling is there and that I can focus on it instead of the negatives... Also, thank you guys for being tolerant of my long posts.

 

97 days

How is it going guys, life is so busy.

 

Day 6- Another very difficult night I had. All these feelings of anxiety and worthlessness came flooding in without even me prompting them. I don't know where they came from. Next thing I know the urges are trying to take over my body. I pondered for a while whether I should just take a peek and dabble with p-subs. I realized that this would be the moment when everything would come crushing down. So I performed my reaction plan when I have urges: 5 second rule, deep breathing and if urges persist prayer. I didn't have to get to prayer as I calmed down very quickly. Another victory! I am so delighted

I am now incorporating yoga into my routine. Talk about experimenting with everything under the sun to be free!

 

Day 11
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219th day. Fine

 

almost in the middle of day 4
hope everyone is ok

 

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Always include prayer. Either a prayer of thanks or a plea for help.

 

Yeah! You are absolutely right!

 

98 Days

All Good, keep fighting guys

 

Hey man, I just feel like mentioning that I deal with major feelings of worthlessness as well. You are not alone. Today at work I about had a panic attacking and I had visions of literally running out of work and throwing myself into traffic. I tried to go and make myself cry but I just couldn’t. Then I started hyperventilating and pacing all around and it was horrible. All the while I was trying to make sure that no one could see what was happening. I hate those feelings, they make me want to give up more than anything. I was having flashbacks of violent fights with my father and of the night that someone tried to kill my mother when I was 7 and I was there and heard it all. All I wanted to do tonight was just give up on bettering my life, I thought to myself “you don’t deserve this job, you don’t deserve friends, you don’t deserve your house, you don’t deserve to live. You can watch porn because no one gives a fuck anyways.”

But I’m here... Still here. I know that doing the right thing is always worth it. I just pray to God that He helps me with these feelings. I know He doesn’t want me to feel this way. I know He doesn’t want you to feel this way either. Keep it up.

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Love Over Lust​