Bullarrd
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I got some sleep earlier so I'm a bit restless.. As on now it's 1:52 am and I've been reflecting on my day. Not only what I did today, but how I reacted to those around me and how that plays into who I am and who I envision myself to be.. tonight's point of speculation was the way I act towards women. I fervently believe every person is unique, this is true, but when it comes to females it's like I view them on a different level than men. Not saying I worship them, yet it isn't hard to see out of male and female which is of less value (expendable).
Now, everybody plays their part. No one is depreciated in my book.. back to the matter at hand, this mentality that I've developed since a very young age has effected most of the women in my life the same way. Most women are attracted to me, I can remember a plethora of times when I've either been invited to hang out with a females, many times women would initiate conversation with me or do something just to get my attention. In my eyes I'm no better than the next man, this could happen to every guy; maybe it's just me. In any case, when I am presented with these opportunities, I turn them down. Not because I don't want the woman in question, but because my morals have a stronger pull on me than my lust. In a society where sleeping around is the norm, more sexual encounters = higher chance of reproduction = good, I pity those who feel it okay to do so. You are entitled to have sex if you'd like with whomever you like, but if watching porn is like having multiple sexual encounters and leaves most males and females feeling empty and numb, why would multiple real life encounters do anything different? Basically, I choose not to be overly sexually active because I don't ever want to be numb to true intimacy. The feeling of making love to a soulmate will never equate to a million one-night-stands.
Take Hugh Hefner for example, if I pose the question Is Hugh Hefner a role model to you? the majority of the answers I'd get from men is yes without thought. And though he had many lovers, he still left this earth assumingly without true love and definitely with ED...
When reflecting, I'm glad I'm deciding to preserve myself, in a sense, for the right woman. I'm no longer a virgin, I have that away toa girl who I thought was right, I just wasn't ready. But just because I gave that up doesn't mean i can no longer live virtuous as the ancient stoics believe..not only because i feel every single woman is worth that selfless love, but because I also believe the consequences following selfish love is not worth it.
If you're having random thoughts like this, why not post it here? Practicing self-awareness is necessary to becoming one in body and spirit, humility is the way to true enlightenment(not referencing any religion).
Now, everybody plays their part. No one is depreciated in my book.. back to the matter at hand, this mentality that I've developed since a very young age has effected most of the women in my life the same way. Most women are attracted to me, I can remember a plethora of times when I've either been invited to hang out with a females, many times women would initiate conversation with me or do something just to get my attention. In my eyes I'm no better than the next man, this could happen to every guy; maybe it's just me. In any case, when I am presented with these opportunities, I turn them down. Not because I don't want the woman in question, but because my morals have a stronger pull on me than my lust. In a society where sleeping around is the norm, more sexual encounters = higher chance of reproduction = good, I pity those who feel it okay to do so. You are entitled to have sex if you'd like with whomever you like, but if watching porn is like having multiple sexual encounters and leaves most males and females feeling empty and numb, why would multiple real life encounters do anything different? Basically, I choose not to be overly sexually active because I don't ever want to be numb to true intimacy. The feeling of making love to a soulmate will never equate to a million one-night-stands.
Take Hugh Hefner for example, if I pose the question Is Hugh Hefner a role model to you? the majority of the answers I'd get from men is yes without thought. And though he had many lovers, he still left this earth assumingly without true love and definitely with ED...
When reflecting, I'm glad I'm deciding to preserve myself, in a sense, for the right woman. I'm no longer a virgin, I have that away toa girl who I thought was right, I just wasn't ready. But just because I gave that up doesn't mean i can no longer live virtuous as the ancient stoics believe..not only because i feel every single woman is worth that selfless love, but because I also believe the consequences following selfish love is not worth it.
If you're having random thoughts like this, why not post it here? Practicing self-awareness is necessary to becoming one in body and spirit, humility is the way to true enlightenment(not referencing any religion).
