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So it was a long week last week I have four major issues/confessions to open up about. First is I'm really starting to believe is that there was most likely early sexual abuse I experienced as a child that I have repressed. It is just so hard to come to terms with the fact that something that significant could happen and I have absolutely no recollection of it whatsoever. It's scary as shit but it does seem to explain a lot. That would be why my porn took down the path of a submissive female type role and even tawrds bisexual. That I just getting these feelings of insecurities and even fear at night wile trying to fall asleep it's a generalized feeling but still it's coming from a deep rooted issue.
Second as a child about 7 or 8 I want to say but not sure on the age exactly. I had a friend and we loved star wars. At some point our playing lead to reacting the sence where princesse Leha is held captive by jobba the hut wearing very little cloths and a chain and color for those who haven't seen it. We rein acted this naked as well as other naked activities not sex in any form however naked contact in a very s&m manner and we would reverse the rolls of who was dominant. This then lead mutual bjs around 4th grade if I recall that only happened once.
Now the second along the same lines jump to high school I'm neck deep in my porn addiction with only 3 real sexual encounters I get into pegging porn and start to think that is how sex should be and went and experimented on myself with adult toys. I did this in high school got ashamed after for doing it then threw the toys out I have repeated this process 4 times now in the 7 years after high school. I crave it in the moment then feel ashamed afterwards.
Then the last one would be fb masturbation since high school I have done this I will go through fb pics of every female that I know and M to them no matter how attractive I find them or not. Usually pairing that with porn flipping back and forth from a video to the pics and if I could find a pornstar that looked like someone I knew that was the goal.
So would be nice if anyone has any experience with one of these 4 topics they are the last of what I have been hiding with this addiction and hope putting them out there will set me free or at least help me find someone who has been through the same or similar experiences. I can't worry about being ashamed of what this addiction has lead me to do or else I will never get free of it I need to be brutally honest from this point on.