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Law of attraction and other stuff

Discussion in 'Off-topic Discussion' started by BigBadWolf_27, Sep 21, 2021.

  1. BigBadWolf_27

    BigBadWolf_27 Fapstronaut

    After nearly one hundred and twenty days of complete abstinence and of nurturing my spiritual side I started to believe in law of attraction. We all have roots of energy within us, no doubt about it. I started to dream about certain things, manifesting it in front of my eyes, visualizing myself achieving important goals. I believe that sexual energy is the most powerful drive that living man can create within himself. The question is - what are you gonna do about it?
    You can jerk it off to your bedsheet, or pour off onto some girl's face if you're lucky enough. You can make baby with the woman you truly love... or use it to your personal advantage. During my early days of retaining I felt like a savage in certain situations. You are horny, confident and full of energy. You don't really give a damn about people around you... You're hungry. You're feeling like the prime version of yourself. The real fun starts when you learn to channeling that energy into other dimensions of your life.
    I was always a socially anxious loner with no personal life. My computer and smartphone were enough for me. After a week friends invited me for a first party since a year or something. They immiadiatelly spotted that something was different. I started to act like a soul of the company, not because I wanted to impress them, I truly felt like it, I wanted to have fun. You could literally touch my aura of energy at that moment. People like to be around others who emanates the positive energy. They started to invite me more often, one time I had some other stuff to do, but my friend assured me that he's ready to drive me to the spot and back again, I just needed to be there.
    You feel different, suddenly you know your worth... Guess what? The girls will notice. The truth about girls is that they want to create a bond with a dude they will feel comfortable and steady with. They want to feel safe and important. They know that sooner or later you will want to have sex with them. And most of girls want to be sure, even unconsciously, that you will be able to provide for the family. Retaining semen makes you more attractive. Period. Your body language is different, you're even looking and acting different. Girls are curious about that vibe around you.
    One time I was laying in my bed during some night. Lonely as hell. I started to feel horny. My balls was full like the Santa Claus' sackcloth. I started to imagine things. Not straightforward porn scenes, more intimate stuff. I was imagining myself with a pretty girl, dancing around, or more like a walking around the dance floor, breaking patterns. Later we go out and sit at the beach, talking with each other, finally kissing. It felt great. I went to sleep, thinking to myself - It would be fun.
    A few weeks later friend is inviting me to a party. As always, I'm ready to have a time of my life. We arrive at the scene and I'm immidiately noticing a beautiful girl. She is looking at me, smiling. She's with female friends. I'm gathering my boys around, starting a brief for a mission. We walk in and took them. She told me - I can see the signals have been read...
    We immidiately started to break the pattern and walk around while other people was acting crazy. She wanted to take a walk outside, so we took a walk. At this point you probably know what comes next. Beach, pier, sitting around, cuddling and kissing. It's not something that happens to me everyday. It was my first really close contact with a girl. Next day I realized that it was simply repeated, it all happened in my head not so long ago. At that day I felt sluggish, sad and somewhat depressed. I was anxious to get out of my room and meet a long no see family members. When I realized that I will go to a party, which for my brain was clear opportunity for getting laid, my anxiety disappeared, I started to act enthusiastic rigtht away.
    I can tell you that if you will be able to somewhat tie your goal to the procreation concept, you body will do anything to make you succeed. For me it was getting a driver's license. What can I say, it was a nightmare for me. I hated driving, was afraid to pick up the responsibility on my shoulders. I was scared. That fear developed over a three years. Four exams, all failed. On my first test I didn't even turn the engine on, I was scared to death. I knew that getting some kind of independence is necessary for my further growth. I started my campaign again. I made mistakes along the way, I felt bad at certain points. But I decided to fight with it. I was learning something new every single day, not only through practical lessons, but also videos and paper manuals. It was a single-minded devotion. No turning back. At the day of the exam I was stressed out. But I visualized myself passing this so many times already. I became obsessed. I even downloaded some template testing sheet and filled it up, skipping any mistakes. I also had a strange dream. I was riding a car and releasing the clutch. When I released it completely I woke up with my pants all messed up. It was a wet dream. It was not erotic though. At that moment I sacrificed some part of my energy on that goal. It appeared strangely clear for me.
    I approached the driving center and said to myself - This is it. One last dance. I was pumped up and confident. Huge pressure was lying upon me. My mind was sharp like never before. We often act on the basis of fight or flight in terms of dealing with stressful situations. At that time I achieved a state of fighting, for the first time since I can remember. After some ride examiner told me to stop. The result of the exam was positive. It was one of the most wonderful feelings. Working on your goal really hard and after so long time finally achieving this... Sheet I filled the day before the exam looked exactly like the offical one. No mistakes.
    Still, our focus can shift drastically during some periods of time. After getting a license I could finally rest up a little. I started looking for a girl, rewarding myself in some way. Dating sites are not the best of ideas if you're horny I'll tell you that. After one hundred and eighteen days I woke up after second wet dream during my streak. This time I felt bad about it. I went to sleep after some long conversation with a really cute girl. I feel like I wasted some of my life-giving, precious liquid. At least it will teach me something. I'm not saying that all women are just an emotional leeches, a worthy one can really change your life and add some values to you, give you support and so on. Just don't chase them like a pieces of meat, that's my advice.
    You can say that it's all placebo or I simply earned that all. Maybe that's the truth, maybe not. It's working in my case, I don't care about the origins of it.
    I believe in that kind of manifestations, I believe in law of attraction. Stay true to yourself, dream a good life. If you truly deserve it will be given to you.
     
  2. All I can say is look out for yourself always, because nobody else will
     
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  3. BigBadWolf_27

    BigBadWolf_27 Fapstronaut

    After one hundred and thirty one days it happened to me again. After a very stressful period I was really depressed and acted very anxious in general. Right before going to sleep I visualized myself in car, supremely confident and comfortable, in full control. It would be so great to feel that way, without worries and irrational fears. I woke up in the night, feeling intense feeling of pleasure. I was dreaming about driving a car, while listening to my favourite music. I felt incredibly good. At first I thought that it was just a minor leakage. Then I realized that my pants are really wet. This time I feel like I sacrificed that part of my energy on greater good, inner goal so to speak. It was not wasted. I know that I'm currently expanding my comfort zone. And it's probably a huge step forward. If I will be able to conquer this, I will be really close to become fully independent. I want it really badly.
     

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