Whadup, people. Today I learned something about myself and the emotions I am escaping through this addiction. I opened my mailbox today. There was bunch of letters in there. After reading them I was so anxious. I felt like society was trying to make my life the hardest possible. I felt distressed and stressed. Urges started to intensify. I was ready to relapse in a second, but then I got it. I snapped my finger and thought "this is it, this is the kind of shit that makes me want to fap". Then I embraced the lousy feeling of stress I had. I was just breathing there for a good couple of minutes and I was receptive to the bad feelings. Urges started to fade away and I started to see, that things ain't as bad as they first seemed. Now I feel okay again. I beat the urge. I feel like a winner. So my advice: when you want to fap, don't do it. Then watch the emotions arise and you will know what you were running away from.