Well complete reboot now again... relapsed three times... It was when I layed to bed that the habit came back and I was alone. That it's okay to masturbate, watch porn and all that. Also I had this motivational quotes paper sticking to the computer that became unstuck today. It triggered me a little and the fact that I have had sex with my girlfriend and O'd. This is really difficult, I think I'm going to try and go easy on me and try to abstain from P and M at the moment. And not be to hard on myself if I fail cause I give myself so much guilt if I fail like I don't accept being human at all and having flaws.