I'm 43 and have been addicted to fapping since early teens when all I could get ahold of were department store swimsuit clothing catalogs. I know my self-esteem could be much better. I want to look people in the eyes and bring confidence to the table. I want better memory and focus and drive to succeed. I want to reach the end of my days knowing I truly lived! I want to feel optimistic about my future. These dark clouds of depression are a killer. I want to look in the mirror and respect the person I see. Porn takes all of that away. I can admit it. I am 1 week in. I started a meetup group yesterday for other recovering porn addicts like me. I feel the winds of change taking hold now. If you feel me, shout out below!