Living with NoFap for a while - invitation to a retrospective

Hey guys, I'm a "fapstronaut" for 1,5 years now and I'm addicted to porn for maybe 10 years. I've been trying hard to quit but I'm still struggling with relatively short streaks and with other issues in my life.

Lately I'm thinking a lot about what I call my addiction and about my efforts to end it. No, that's not quite true, I've been thinking about it the whole year. But maybe my point-of-view has changed lately.

Anyway, since the old year is ending and we're awaiting a new year I thought this could be the opportunity to have the 2016 year in review together in regard to nofap and all that. I want to address especially those for whom - like me - nofap has been a part of their life for quite a time.


Here comes my own reflections of the past year. I hope I may read some reflections of you guys later on.

Maybe you can hear it already, my mood is quite melancholic. I can't say I'm proud with what I did this year and although I try to be content with what is and what I have I can't say that I'm excited about this year of my life. Yes I am content, but only on the baseline.
As for my addiction or rather for the complex of persisting problems in my life I think I've reached the level of know-it-all but can't really apply what I know.
When it comes to porn, masturbation or fantasy I have the tendency to be more relaxed and less strict with myself now. Yes, I think acceptance is crucial. But every time I binge like a madman I see the truth, the severity of my addiction. Conclusion: there's no shortcut for me, no easy way out. I'm not doing nofap like a sport anymore, I've discarded my counters.
My life has to change, not just my browser history. And what I wish for 2017 is that I'll have the inner strength to make my will rule over my habits. I don't want to be a blockhead anymore.

 

Thanks @Chef Boy, but masturbation is not ruining my life. I'm kind of paralyzed in most areas of my life right now. I think that life situation and my lack of courage and self-discipline is the reason that porn is such a big thing in my life and that quitting has been impossible for me so far.
Nevertheless, beating porn would be the perfect start for a more proactive, more self-determined life. And I've become quite a geek in NoFap after all, I just hope I can realize my "reboot" soon and close the chapter.