Hi everyone, hope everyone is doing well. I am currently over a month on this streak. I don’t keep track of the days, I noticed I sort of naturally forgot what day I’m on and I don’t ever really think of whatever day I’m on because truthfully, it doesn’t matter. I would say the past month and whatever amount of days has been life changing to an extent. One of the biggest changes I’ve noticed is my desire to connect with people and actually become intimate with a real woman. This desire can actually become overwhelming a lot of the time. I’ve considered going back onto dating apps but I never go through with it because of the damage that could bring on. That’s how desperate I am for connection and intimacy. I’m 22 and I’ve never had a relationship that was actually successful and I’ve never had sex either. Another problem I’ve noticed is it’s difficult trying to not focus on getting a girlfriend or having sex when you’re 22, never had sex or a succesfull relationship, especially when most of your friends have. As a teen, I was actually very social and I firmly believed I was a pretty chill dude. I had a good amount of friends and gave off a good vibe. I remember friends telling me they were surprised I was a virgin! But then things changed, I believe I became more awkward and possibly even developed some social anxiety. Another thing I noticed is this desire for connection and intimacy has actually helped lifted that social anxiety. And now I think I’m actually returning to that chill laid back persona I had years back. My question is where can I meet new people? Men and women. I would like to gain more friends but I also love to have a loving relationship. The sex will be great when it comes but just wow, I really desire that connection with a women, on a emotional level. I work full time at a grocery store and I’m actually going back to college later this month so I’m really excited for that. I also recently started going back to the gym. I have some things going for me which is great but I need to get around this loneliness because it causes emotional pain a lot of the time.