I am a 44 y/ o dude. Divorced, 2 kids, no friends around. Financially not that great. I have back pain so no running or sports. Work F/T. I haven't mas*******d and or watched porn for a week. Feeling depressed. Don't drink or smoke. Also not a binge eater. No date or casual sex partner. I have nothing to reward myself now. Thinking of getting happy ending massage after three of I can stay away from porn.