Loosing my freedom to porn

Hello, I'm 34, from Mexico.

I found this site two days ago and I got interested in getting a solution to my porn addiction right away.

I've been watching porn almost daily for the last few years. I don't watch it for long hours, but just for a few minutes a day. I also masturbate everyday regardless if I'm sexually active those days or not.

What really became something to worry about is that in the lasts months I've been preferring watching porn and masturbating over having sex with my current gf. At the beginning I thought it was because I'm getting old and lazy, as having sex is more demanding in energy and time than just masturbating, but I still think that it is a bit disturbing that I can masturbate every day but I'm only willing to have sex with she 2 or 3 times a week. Now I'm starting to think that this is not a normal behavior and that I really need to do something about it. Even when she is pretty, young and in good shape, and that there's love between us, I eventually started to consider her less sex appealing. I wonder if this could be related to the fact that when I watch porn I can decide everyday between a very wide range of girls and situations to get myself horny, so I can feel a bit bored about her body after a few days.

I assume that I suffer from porn addiction as I feel like watching porn and masturbating as soon as I wake up or I'm back home from work. Feeling the impulse of masturbating constantly makes me feel very uncomfortable, it feels like I have lost control over myself and that I'm not really free to decide what to do or not to do with my body. Moreover, I believe this addiction will end up ruining my current relation or any other I have in the future.

I wish this website will help me overcome my issues with masturbating and watching porn. I want to be free from these impulses again and to have a normal and healthy sexual life once again.

I will not see my gf for around a month, so this is the PMO goal I have set to begin with my journey.

Thanks for reading and commenting, fellow porn addict friends.

Hesai.