I always identified as a male and had normal attraction to women, before the year 2017. After briefly dating a psychopath, I lost my attraction to women. I started associating sex and dating with the psycho. I also started masturbating every day (without porn). But I never could recreate the vivid fantasies I had before 2017. Then I started spending a lot of time on a certain Internet forum, which was full of redpill guys. I soon started despising them, and I disowned the male identity. As a teen I was bullied by some chavs. So the idea arose in my mind that being male means being like the chavs and redpillers - sexist, cynical, and authoritarian. But the forum had also many "gender-inclusive" members, which were much more likeable. I started identifying with them, and calling myself "agender". What can I do to recover my gender identity and attraction?