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  1. jk243

    jk243 Fapstronaut

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    Hello, a 20 years old guy. To summarize my problem. I watched porn for the first time when I was 14 years, it became a problem 3 years ago. Now I'm 20 and I didn't make any progress since then. There is a problem. I am a Christian , I grew up with Christian values. I love girls and never had sexual oriented problem. But these days, with the images of porn I watched, I have some "gay" random thoughts. It is not a big issue, it happens sometimes. But I cross the line ... I relapsed and then I saw an image, Idk why but I was curious about it, and I knew the link was leading to a gay site. I entered and then I immediately quit and I feel I crossed a line. A dirty line :(:(:(. I never entered to a gay porn site consciously . But today I did it. I'm not homophobic, I respect gay people, but those act don't match with my values and religion. Did you guys, without being gay, already watch gay porn; or being curious about it, I just want to know if you already did it or not:(:(. Feeling ashamed and Sad, Idk If I can really get out of this spirals. 3 years and nuthin change, sh*t only get worse. But errday I read the bible and pray.
     
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  2. drac16

    drac16 Fapstronaut

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    I've watched gay pornography before. I was simply curious about how they do it. It didn't turn me on, though. Don't feel discouraged, my dear brother. Just ask the Lord to forgive you and to make it easy for you to abstain from PMO.
     

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