i'm currently 124 days without Porn and Masturbation and I recently decided to not have sex with my girlfriend for a month to see if this help my brain recover faster. Ii want to see results in brain fog, mood swings, anxiety , confidence ,cognitive function etc. I think that the amount of sex we were having so far didn't let my brain recover much(4-7 times per week). Lots of guys say that sex is not a problem but i start to believe it's counterproductive in the process... It's all very confusing!! So i abstained from sex for 7 days and i felt much much better in terms of confidence anxiety and mood!! Then I had blowjob and sex 2 times this weekend and i feel terrible now. My confidence went on the floor, overthinking and self defeating thoughts are back stronger than ever!!! My main fetish had to do with blowjob etc and even if i didn't watch any porn or had any thoughts about it it still messed my brain too much.... I need to go back to my good self and try much harder to not have any kind of sex with my girlfriend! I don't know why is this happening...blowjob, sex , orgasm always sent me to a bad emotional, psychological state. I want to be normal and have sex without any consequences, but i'm afraid this will take years!! I hate sex at the moment for what is doing to me, but it's sad because i'm with this lovely person and i don't want to affect my relationship. As i said , i've told her everything and see said she will fully support me, but the whole situation than i'm going through lowers my confidence and manliness.